Feeling regretful that I couldn't visit before his transfer

[mandarose]

I feel bad.. I had planned to see my babe again this week cuz we knew he'd be leaving any day now.. but things kept making it difficult to go.. he is understanding and knows I have a life & 2 kids to raise alone.. I wasn't able to talk to him yesterday and well he didn't call today, and I kind of felt... funny because he always calls atleast twice by now even for just 2 mins... i have no reason to think anything bad about him... just knew either he hasn't had a chance to call or he was transferred.. and sure enough he was :-( why do I feel sad when I knew it would happen.. I was just hoping he wouldn't leave til next wk lol but u know u. Can only wish..
I feel like I shouldn't hurt like I do.. but its hard when he's all I have other then my kids in new york...

We both know the visits will happen less from now on.. for a few reasons..


Even though he isn't pleased ill be gone for the Summer back to my home state... he believes it'll be good for me.. to help pass time & keep me busy so I don't stress everything so much...

Idk how some of you have or will do this for so long.. a lot of you are strong .. pto has been a great place.. and I've learn a lot otherwise I'm not sure I'd make it.. just to have a place to relate with others..

I honestly regret not going like I planned but was out of my control :-( he is great & understanding.. otherwise we'd never be involved...

May 22 2013 needs to come quicker

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