Demons and more demons

[DalesDeb]

I really didn't know how to adrdess this, except to say I have fought so hard for so long, just not with my baby being gone but my stuff. I have always been so strong, but when he went back almost 2 years ago it has killed me.. I started drinking again, and I have been threw 2 jobs. I am a educated women, but with no purpose. I just don't undertstand sometimes why God gives us these people to love so much and puts such distance. I have tried so hard but I am so lost without him. How do I get past this? Have I finally lost my mind?????????????? Todays my birthday and he didn't even send a card.......No call no nothing, I just send him so much money... Sorry needed to vent

[irisheyes66]

Originally Posted by DalesDeb

I just don't undertstand sometimes why God gives us these people to love so much and puts such distance.

((((deb))))

I have asked myself (and my honey) that question a thousand times....and I'm no closer to the answer today than I was 3 years ago.

Better days are ahead. You have to believe it, or else what is the purpose of this existence?

Go rent a good movie.....eat some sinfully rich dessert.....say a silent prayer for your man, that he is not struggling with something at the moment.

Oh, and Happy Birthday to you, girl

Hugs,
Susan

[Sheryl]

Happy Birthday Deb. I am so sorry your feeling so down. I wish i had the answers for you, but sorry I don't. You just need to stay strong, I know its easier said than done at times, oh boy do I know that. If you need someone to talk to please pm me I will be glad to talk with you. Sometimes it helps talking to people you don't know. I am a great listener.
Stay strong sweetie. I know that had to hurt no card or call from your man. but you know the mail and the day isn't done yet.
Sheryl

[Retired-26]

todays my bday too i know how you feel... my ex hubby and i split up right around my bday too. that was years ago, but now, to this day, i think about it. this time of year period just sucks! but it gets better. it does it does it does just keep thinking positive, even if its something small.

[DENIMBLUE]

~Happy Birthday~take care of YOU...you are the most important person in your life...fight to stay strong...you can do it and your are worth it!

[ontheroadagain]

Sending birthday wishes your way and to Ash as well. Here's to tomorrow looking brighter for you and I hope a call or card for you from him as well.

[wolfdoll33]

Hang in there girl. We are all here to support you. Happy Birthday coming from us is not as good as from your man but hope it helps you to feel better about yourself and things. Think about going to an AA meeting. Maybe that will help you get a grip on things. Take care sweetie.

[cinderella2004]

Happy Birthday and best wishes!!! Your post reminds me of me. Keep an open mind, look to be of service to others and you will find your purpose. It works and that's my advice to you.

[MrsBenji]

I hope that your day got better. And remember that we depend on the mail, which is unpredictable. You may very well have a card tomorrow.

I'm with Susan. Go indulge yourself. Food that is so sinfully yummy and a good girlie movie that you can have a good cry with too, maybe.

I'm sorry that stuffs are all hitting at once. It really is hard, but you can make it through. You can and will survive.

Hugs.
Jenn

[haswtch]

{{{{{{{{{{{{HAPPY BIRTHDAY}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} the clever students get the tricky tests!

[Diane93635]

wish I could help....

But I can wish you a very happy birthday!!!! And many more...

[zhane]

Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be add just hold on to your faith and fight those demons off when you feel it coming pray it will make you feel a whole lot better.

Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to You, Happy Birthday to YOOUUU, Happy Birthday to You!

[nimuay]

Happy, Happy Birthday!

Let's not blame "God" for the people in our lives. We make the choice of who to let in, and it's in making the choices that we have to learn the bad from the good. It's a lesson, and if you don't get it right then you get to take it over again. And again.

I know.

It sounds like your real job is to learn to be whole without him, and not to allow him to be a reason for drinking or not drinking. That has to come from you, but you know that.

Again, Happy Birthday!

[MamaSheila]

Have you ever heard that saying..."You are what you think you are." It's so true. If you think you are lost without him, then you will be. Whatever you think about yourself is who you ultimately who you are. If you tell yourself, "I deserve to be loved as much as the next person." I am smart, funny and a happy person" (something along those lines) then, even if you didn't believe those things in the beginning of you saying them to yourself, you will start to believe those things about you, but repeating a statement like i said above, over and over again, throughout your day...soon it becomes part of you. If you send him a lot of money and I think you do, he could've at least bought you a birthday card. I'm sorry that he was so inconsiderate and lame. There is no excuse for that, period. I don't want you to feel bad, i just want you to not let him walk on you (if he is) and not appreciate your thoughtfulness and generosity towards him. He is lucky to have you. You I'm afraid...can get better, a whole lot better. You are a very nice person with a big heart. Not all that common anymore. So, believe in yourself, love yourself and you will see...others will treat you the same way. I know a great book called, "The power within" by Louise Hay. That book is so powerful. That book changed my life. It makes you strong and confident. I can say enough great things about it. You should buy it and try it. Because I think it will help you in so many ways to bring positivity into your life while weeding out bad things(people, habits etc.) There is no excuse for his lack of manners and you better believe, if it were me...he'd hear it from me. Just a suggestion, "Kick him to the curb, and down the drainage vent." (Ha!) Don't take his b.s., you don't have to. Just my two cents worth.
Love, Sheila :shake:

[LeaAnn]

Happy Belated Birthday to you and so sorry he forgot about you. Take care and hope to chat soon.