I hate him but I miss him

[Evilnlita033005]

It's been at least 2 months since me and my ex broke up. Basically what happened was that one of his ex's started visiting him behind my back and while I was supporting him, she went up there with no worries because she didn't have to spend a dime. The point is that even though he played me, I miss him very much. I know to most of you this sounds like I'm a weak person but I stood up for myself and walked away cleanly. I miss the letters, the 3-way calls, the pictures he drew for me, I miss the visits ever so much. I don't know what's wrong with me and I really wish I could stop missing him. I've been trying to move on but every time I do, he writes me a letter saying he's sorry and that he wants me back then I turn into a big mess because I don't know what to do and then he says something stupid and I hate him again.


HELP!!!!!