Trying to lose weight after getting into a new (MWI) relationship

[lisamarie.1984]

hello all!


i have been BIG all of my teen and adult life. actually i was a pretty chuncky child as well. it has always made me misrable being so heavy. at my largest i was 330lbs. i had dropped to around 280 but i am back upto around 315. carrying this weight has led to many problems. i have bursitis in my knees, arthritis in my back, a pinched nerve and several herniated disks. not to mention how it effected my social life. i have always been extreamly shy and people can be cruel to those who are different. it got so bad that i was suicidal for a time. after years of meds and just growing up i learned to deal. i tried many times to lose the weight but nothing seemed to work. it still just did not seem worth it. i wasnt suicidal anymore but i just did not care anymore about the weight. i thought "this is who i am. i am a bbw and if people dont like me then screw them." but then one day i was on the computer and i was bored and lonely. i wanted new friends and who better than an inmate? i went through and picked out a few profiles. almost skipped over my honeys because i did not want to write to someone so close to home because i DID NOT want a relationship and i thought the further away the least likely that would happen.(i know, thats a niave thought. distance does not matter in the least). but i was so drawn i had to write him. we had such an instant and deep conection. we saw through everything to what matters the most in anykind of relationship. the outside package didnt matter. he SAW ME. who i really am. i saw him. he does not care that i am a bbw. to him i am his sexxxy babygirl. and heres the kicker: i FEEL like his sexxxy babygirl. he wouldnt care if i never lost another pound. but now i have finaly found him i want to be with him for as long as we both live. this is the reason/motivation i needed to finally change my lifestyle and lose the weight. at least a good part of it. for us. so we can have kids together.(being big greatly decreases fertility rates). so we can grow old together.

wow this ended up being muuuuch longer than i expected. anyway what i want to know is has your mwi motivated you to change your life in anyway, not by asking but by simply being a part of your life?