Inside the mind of Nick's girl

[waiting*4*nick]

eyes filled with tears, chest crushed with pain, will I ever hold my baby again?! days that should feel warm and inviting now seem gray and lonely and I feel like hiding, I love him and I've done no wrong, to him im faithful and I try to stay strong, but he doubts me and I don't know why, I write him faithfully, I don't cheat or lie, there is money on his books and a visit each week, what else does he expect from me?! he thinks I don't love him, he feels I don't care simply because im here and he's there that breaks my heart and makes me cry, how else can I show him he's my number one guy?! I wanted to protect him, I tried my best to keep him safe so I put him on a bus and I sent him away, yes it was wrong but it felt so right I thought he'd be free at least one more night. feeling content like id done something great until I got home, then a cruel twist of fate his father called me to say that they got him, yes before we were supposed to go so he could turn himself in they caught him, a lump in my throat, a knot in my tummy, I didn't do him any good at all and I feel like a dumby no goodbye baby kiss, no last ride on fuzzy wuzzy, before I said goodbye the robbed me of my hubby now im at home and always alone waiting and counting the days till my birdie is set free for when he is I will also be I love you nicholas my chubbikins :mauh: