Fear

[Hummingbird4U]

Fear

To live in fear is to hide that what you are

To live in fear in any relationship is to fall prey to your partner. You give them the power to control and manipulate you into something that changes appearance so much and so often you cannot keep up with how you must behave. You become two different people, one to show friends and family the other to be displayed as requested by your partner. You begin to realize that sometimes you forget the role one plays for the other. This creates more fear. Your friends may question your action when the role for your partner falls upon them. However, avoidance of the role seen by friends and family must be strongly applied so as not to overlap the role the partner demands for fear of reprisal.
You cannot hold your sprit inside you like that. Your sprit is much stronger than your body and the fight to escape will get stronger and stronger. Your sprit is you and wants to enjoy life and be at peace with your vessel. It is hard both physically and mentally to do this and eventually you will lose all reason. You will denounce all who stood by you and supported you. You will allow nothing into your heart, no feelings, no emotions, no joy, no love, you will be empty and unless you seek help, you will leave your vessel empty of all the things your sprit exists on. Be strong. Believe in yourself. Leave this fear you live in.

words by Hummingbird4U