Beyond Annoyed

[Johnston90]

I've not been over here for some time. I've ended it with my death row inmate. I've had it. Its been 4 years. Last summer he told me to start seeing other men etc. I didn't do this right away but did figure out he was writing someone else. So I come clean with him as I'm an honest person. Now he says it has to be all about him and that I need to dedicate myself to him. Well now I've let myself fall for someone else and I can't just turn my back on this person. Who helps me no matter what. Here is the thing...I've helped this guy with his legal work, gone above and beyond to help him and send him money etc. I had still planned on being his friend after all this. We really drifted away the last year in which I am sad about - but right now today - I AM SO ANGRY WITH HIM I WANT TO SCREAM! He told me that I better send him his stuff (this is my stuff that I have gathered through these 4 years trying to help prove his innocence) but h e can have it. I have no issue with that. I've actually sent it to his sister before in which she sent it back to me....unopened. Anyway he tells me today if I don't do what he wants that he will have no choice than to have someone email my mom. WTH? Why would he want to involve her into this? I did contact his sister today and let him know how he is acting. I read the rules and regulations for TDCJ but I don't see where it relates to this. I'm just really venting but I was reading through here at various people being in love with death row inmates. Oh how I loved him in the beginnning and he gave me so much. Be careful. This is a hard type of relationship. I didn't mean to fall in love with him. I'm not really sad but I do feel like I lost a part of me......thoughts??