Balance - I'm not sure how to balance him and my life

[Iloveyou6211]

Originally Posted by NeverDull

And when the clock creeps closer and closer to lockdown time I get more and more anxious. I tell myself "well he probably can't call tonight because the phones are off..." and sometimes he calls at the last minute or sometimes he can't call. He has told me a million times "If I can't email or call it's not because I don't want to! NOOO!!! It's because they are not working so don't freak out!"

And I WISH he would do prison booty calls!! He said no way!! "there are 100 men in here in this room and you want me to walk around with a boner??" LOL!!

Yes I feel u I was up all night no call at all at least u tell yourself reasonable things I'm wondering the worst is he hurt in the box did a friend or family member get to him n now he doesn't want me he can tell me 10,000 times it's not me it's the stupid cops but I can't help what my mind thinks!

[NikNak88]

Originally Posted by Iloveyou6211

Yes I feel u I was up all night no call at all at least u tell yourself reasonable things I'm wondering the worst is he hurt in the box did a friend or family member get to him n now he doesn't want me he can tell me 10,000 times it's not me it's the stupid cops but I can't help what my mind thinks!

Try not to worry yourself. I know it's easier said than done.....but don't be so insecure and hard on yourself. Things happen sometimes and they can't call. Have a little faith in him

What do you mean by maybe his family got to him and now he doesn't want you?

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[Iloveyou6211]

Originally Posted by NikNak88

Try not to worry yourself. I know it's easier said than done.....but don't be so insecure and hard on yourself. Things happen sometimes and they can't call. Have a little faith in him

What do you mean by maybe his family got to him and now he doesn't want you?

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Your right I do need to just trust him the last time this happened though when it went days he was on lockdown then called n told me after thinking so long I deserve someone better someone who hasn't done what he has n now has to help him through it n that was the worst moment in my life I hit rock bottom but long story short we got back together not even two weeks later n still talked everyday but it scares me that he'll get depressed and start thinking like that again n his family used to love me until they found out were moving in together up here in md once he gets out now I've got deamons they say n his mom told him she would commit suicide if he left. So things like that are what make me scared I have major trust issues n he knows that n I'm tryin to work on it but it doesn't seem to be workin