Hard time writing my old cellmate - stresses me out

[trashisfree]

I did 6 months, most of it with Gary, who I still care about. But every time I have to write him, I am stressed out and depressed for days. It would be easier for me to write someone I didn't do time with personally.

It was pretty miserable for me, major knee problems with no clue what was wrong, the worst food I have ever seen for someone who is a pretty hardcore foodie, no internet, used to living comfortably. Plus still grieving from my wife dying of asthma, which was how I got busted and went to prison for drugs.

It really doesn't help too that he is always bugging me to bug his friend for money. I have gotten to be good friends with his one super responsible friend, have done some occasional work for his friend etc.

He's been out 2 times, and I've been out for almost 4 years, with my probation ending in 2 months. Both times he was back in within months on new cases. Somehow it would be easier for me too, if it was one stretch, not someone going back again and again. He's killing his number, out in 5 months with no parole.

Any advice on how to write him without being all stressed out and depressed for days? Its like I have prison ptsd for days afterwords.