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If your friend has come to peace with what his future holds, you must do the same. Usually there's a tension somewhere in your body that signals emotional pain to you. If you can find it, then you can relax it. It could be your neck, or your jaw, or your stomach or the toes on your left foot . . . doesn't matter where it is, just notice it and then tighten it further, then release it. As you do that, you can bring some calming thoughts up - whether that's music or a place that's quiet and soothing for you, or the scent of a flower or the sight of a bird. You relax.

Softness can help you come to peace with the inevitable, whether that is cancer or loss of a parent or a child or serious injury.
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If your friend has come to peace with what his future holds, you must do the same. Usually there's a tension somewhere in your body that signals emotional pain to you. If you can find it, then you can relax it. It could be your neck, or your jaw, or your stomach or the toes on your left foot . . . doesn't matter where it is, just notice it and then tighten it further, then release it. As you do that, you can bring some calming thoughts up - whether that's music or a place that's quiet and soothing for you, or the scent of a flower or the sight of a bird. You relax.

Softness can help you come to peace with the inevitable, whether that is cancer or loss of a parent or a child or serious injury.
nimuay,you told same thing with my friend..
But it came from not because he accepts death,
Because he shouldn't be in death raw if he was not in Texas.
If my friend accept it,I have to.but,with my personal opinion about how The Law should be,I have to fight in other way.

untimely,I lost my mother (and one aunt)to breast cancer last November,and us,her daughters has 50% possibility of having same DNA mutation.
I think to relax will work for us,
sometime it's so hard,But I'll try.

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A bit responsibility and vent for another publicity.
Co-defenders seems to interviewed and it will appear on TV,here we can see much later,or never.
I trust them about it,I've read one's autobiography and other one had been help my friend while he was on the earth.

Sometime I feel like public enemy No.1 's friend.
Better not swallow what media gives you,people.

Permission from my friend.
and I'll try something.
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I was "Public Enemy Number 1's" friend for years. I ignored the media and learned to have thick skin when it came to anything dealing with him. It takes a while to get there, but you will.
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I was "Public Enemy Number 1's" friend for years. I ignored the media and learned to have thick skin when it came to anything dealing with him. It takes a while to get there, but you will.

Thanks..
I need a thick skin too.
had been working on media-side,
What makes me sick is,how media manipulate people and how people easily manipulated.

But,for me.I could see my friend and hear the voice,cause I cannot go and see him,Trying to think it's good for me.
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Vent here
Almost same time One channel will on air TV program my friend's co-defenders are interviewed,In Japanese channel will rebroadcast other program about them,overly dramatic, and there are lots of edit of interview.especially for my friend,and he heard it from other friend and so angry about the program. but himself cannot see or complain directly TV company.so unfair.

I sent a mail for TV company and got absurd reply(I expected).
The program didn't made sure non-shooters are among them.
Many of Japanese are easily influenced,I hope this country's opinion affects Texas.It will not happen,but just depressed.
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praying is not to talk with a certain god but to go deep inside yourself. this is my understanding of it.
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praying is not to talk with a certain god but to go deep inside yourself. this is my understanding of it.
Thanks UniversalDancer,
I think to,too.as we do it usually.
I just confused what can I do for people who have certain god in their mind.
When I was watching animation "Simpsons",India man said "In Hindu,we pray for dream team of god."
I love this expression
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Almost this one going to be my blog XD
actually not.
I have a reflection for my board attitude..
I stick with one case too much,and spending my full power.It's ok when I'm not online,but I have to send my piece of heart for other people.I feel so bad for all people in prison,especially in DR.

(well I cannot care about all people..My friend told me "think what you can and what you cannot"Thanks my new dad!)

For 20 years,I think I wrote before.I had been searching one missing child in Washington state's information.Now his case is on major website,So I moved forward and arrived here.

It means,maybe I have a tendency stick with one case.
mmm,not a good attitude here.

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Ok this is vent,very simple vent.

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Be supportive of your pp. Cry and feel your emotions - there's nothing weak about that, and they are valid, valuable feelings. The pain, anger, anguish and whatnot that you feel informs you about your own humanity, and the humanity of others. It is what tells you that the connection you make with others is valid and valuable.

As for praying; don't. If you can't don't punish yourself for not being able to. If you're in the habit, meditate. When bad times come for those you love, think only positive things for them; hope, positive energy, karma, whatever - be positive in your mind and your heart for that person in their time of trouble. Sometimes that's the best you can do.

The law of parties sucks. Hopefully his more culpable defendants have lesser sentences so that parity and proportionality kick in.
I was a bit dark mood,but I got a good news just now!!!!
More(not a Law of Parties)culpable defendant won appeal!!!! U.S supreme court will have his death sentence reviewed!!!!

My friend,one of two least culpable defendant,has hope!

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illusionist, I hope so much everything will chance in the best way for your friend and you
Thank you..I hope so.

I think I'd better to be quiet for a few days,a bit overwhelmed..

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What a ignorant of me,
My friend's co-defendant won"centiorari" Appeal,
And My friend was denied same thing years before.I'm so frustrated my lack of knowledge,learning and reality goes in same speed,or,reality is faster!

I want to cry but it's no use.

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Learning is interesting-if it's not related human life.

"Emotionally drained" is sometime,manytime fits my feeling,even My pp helped me lots,when I had many untimely things last year.

Many people says you're monster and tell many evil words,Thinking they never involved same situation.
One person told me,in a non-prison related argument,"God is on my side!"
Strange,"God" does such a thing inside her thought? Protect her and harm who against her?

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I suppose my former post is offensive for religious people.It's about one selfish person who misused the name of God

Correction goes on..I wrote one of my friend's co-deffender "once closed case and tried to die".
It's my misunderstand because if my immature knowledge about U.S criminal law.

"I don't understand why the case is once closed and later reopened.'is best of my understanding.
hoping good luck for his Appeal!

i'm enclose myself in this thread when I don't have enough social feeling,

This time,the reason is "Into the Abyss"(too hard for me,my heart sunked when I watch half)
and nerdy attempt to see "on death row".Nerd work is draining in other meaning!

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Hi misha.Thanks for reply.
I'm confused because I don't have any religion.
Born and brought up in modern days Japan means it.but we have nature belief as a culture.

But This is not a thread about religion,I mistaken Thread name,now not related what I post.
I guess,I'd better to make new thread
Because I found this is my "Vent".

Everyone needs ventilator even I don't have someone to pray

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I've been in seasonal depression (plus,"into the abyss "caused depression),
So I'm sorry for My thank you for mamma changing this thread's title became much later.

Reason is,as we(recent Japanese)rarely touch religion,so even I have respect for all people who has religion,I was so careless when I made this thread.

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Battling with google map,to show my friend was not shooting site..

It's so frustrated my physical condition is so fragile,How can I save another person when I barely save myself?

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Still here

I cannot believe I was doing mafia-related job.
(But I have been only drawing)

Ir's so difficult to gather support for my friend.
Now 2 of supporters are in trouble,My situation does not seems to be improve.(I cannot walk to the Station)

After I met trouble,Maybe I grew up,but going physically downfall.I don't want to him die.

I have a right to furious to prosecutor who said my friend(lookout)like a terrorist,
I scream to prosecutor instead of My University's Student who was on UA93! ,

Also,I saw on TV,the moment the plane struck "Fuji Bank New York Branch"(81th?86 th? )

A woman screamed "It's like Pearl Harbor!"

I'm not an anti-American,Never,I'm an anti-idiot.

Japanese and lots of other country's people involved U.s's situation,and prosecutor abuse the incident.It's a disrespect for all victim.

This can be a blame,but not my idea.I've read Americans have "Hero Complex"it raise mortality of Law Enforcement.
"Hero Complex"it made my disturbing feeling very clear.It must be paired with American Dream."If I couldn't make fortune,let's be hero"sigh.

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Illusionist I know how hard it is to have a loved one on death row and it's especially difficult when they are "high profile" the media protrays them as monsters. The only advice I can offer is don't read all the "news stories", they are one sided and sensationalized to get attention to their reports. I used to get very frustrated as well especially with the misinformation, I was very naive thinking that the media couldn't print things that were not true. I now know differently.
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Illusionist I know how hard it is to have a loved one on death row and it's especially difficult when they are "high profile" the media protrays them as monsters. The only advice I can offer is don't read all the "news stories", they are one sided and sensationalized to get attention to their reports. I used to get very frustrated as well especially with the misinformation, I was very naive thinking that the media couldn't print things that were not true. I now know differently.
Thanks,CanadianGypcy.

Bur please don't worry about media things for me.
while working with them before I broke my body,
I became used to what they want to show their readers.
When I wrote 1st time in 2011,I didn't know about his case,I didn't know what happened in Texas in 2000.
(Maybe I don't read news story for long time)
So,I didn't get so many media attack.And as low profile person in high profile case,I don't think medias remembers my friend's name,

So,What most struck me was Affidavit by his half sister and brother,who lived living hell since he/she was born.and That's a childhood of my friend.

Former my post is,mixture of

1: "I'm so tired of people who thinks America is the best and American (dead)hero is best,"

2:things about my friend.

sorry about confusing writing.

I can get information from the court record and mostly It's only way.

I'm still (maybe extremely)naive,but not Media-naive.and actually,An media article related to my friend is nowhere found.

Oh,I'm reading "news stories"of DPIC .should be counted and no problem.

Thanks for concern me. But I' ok with a media to beat them.(I use only words)

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My former post was "Cocky"(maybe).
I'm sorry about it.

I have extreme mood swing,but it's quick one.
My friend P told me "If you're Bipolar or Schkizophlenia (Again,I cannot spell)I don't care those things,Just be yourself".
I don't have those hard trouble,but,yep,sorry about my ADHD.(plus,DV victim physically)

When I began to write him,I thought,my brain is still working,so I wanted use it for someone in trouble before I die in vain.

And I found myself in financial vain.not because of him.
He has no financial supporter now,long-time friend and his (not direct friend,better not write?)
anyway,he had supporter,Send him a book or buy a boot at winter,but both cannot help him now also,It's something I cannot do now.

Of course he says "Don't do it" to me,but as a person in financial trouble,I understand how hard the situation is.

Did I hoped too much? Should I quietly live for only myself?

I'm so desparated.

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