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csgirlalways · #1 04-22-2012, 10:48 PM

I got two phone calls today, which was wonderful. But here it is almost 1 a.m., kids are asleep and it's way too quiet. I live with my second parents and they are wonderful people and supportive of my relationship, I have people I talk to from church...kind of. But I still feel alone. I never go out because I don't really hang out with anyone around here...and it seems like everyone's always too busy anyway.

Sorry for the pity party rant....just needed to get this out somewhere.

moonbaby1111 · #2 04-22-2012, 11:11 PM

See ur not alone? lol But I understand what ur saying...I've felt like that mostly on holidays. I don't have any familiy..I do have a sister but her life is pretty much centered on her bf so I don't see her very often and I don't have any children so life can be quiet...I'm a night owl tho so I'm up most of the night being used to working 2nd and 3rd shifts. My baby is pretty far away from me so can't visit cuz of the expense and we've been having a lil rough patch it seems so not sure Two phone calls today? wow ur a lucky woman...I know mine got his minutes back today but...I don't get very many calls (maybe 2-3 a month) because he does have his mom, brother and lil boy that were there before me and I've always told him I didn't want to take away from them. And he sounds terrible bout his minutes. Told me at the beginning when he gets them there gone faaasssst. I think maybe the calls today just put you in the mood to miss him even more. I never live close to other people...too bad we could go get a bite to eat n watch people (big people watcherlol Maybe there's sum other ladies from on here out your way that you could get to know and just do a dinner or lunch every once in awhile? That completely alone feeling is a downer kimmy

csgirlalways · #3 04-22-2012, 11:38 PM

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Originally Posted by moonbaby1111

See ur not alone? lol But I understand what ur saying...I've felt like that mostly on holidays. I don't have any familiy..I do have a sister but her life is pretty much centered on her bf so I don't see her very often and I don't have any children so life can be quiet...I'm a night owl tho so I'm up most of the night being used to working 2nd and 3rd shifts. My baby is pretty far away from me so can't visit cuz of the expense and we've been having a lil rough patch it seems so not sure Two phone calls today? wow ur a lucky woman...I know mine got his minutes back today but...I don't get very many calls (maybe 2-3 a month) because he does have his mom, brother and lil boy that were there before me and I've always told him I didn't want to take away from them. And he sounds terrible bout his minutes. Told me at the beginning when he gets them there gone faaasssst. I think maybe the calls today just put you in the mood to miss him even more. I never live close to other people...too bad we could go get a bite to eat n watch people (big people watcherlol Maybe there's sum other ladies from on here out your way that you could get to know and just do a dinner or lunch every once in awhile? That completely alone feeling is a downer kimmy

I wish I could give you a great big hug

We do get to talk quite a bit and I'm grateful for every single call...but you're right, in a way, it does make me miss him more. I only get to see him about once a month due to transportation issues but it's what I hold on to. I'm trying to do the best that I can for me and the kids but sometimes, at the end of the day, it would be wonderful to have someone to go to dinner with or just hang out with. I'm sorry you don't get to see your man often and I'd go crazy with limited minutes....I think he would too cause he's worse about the phone than I am! You're so sweet....thanks for the smile

moonbaby1111 · #4 04-22-2012, 11:46 PM

awww ur very welcome. I'm sure you've got alot of responsibilities and that it gets draining on you and you really do need to recharge every once in awhile. Glad to put a smile on ur face when you were feelin blue. I'm still thinkin there's other woman on here near you so you can go do that dinner soon...Here's to that thought kimmy

csgirlalways · #5 04-23-2012, 10:58 AM

Thanks love. I try not to whine but last night, I was just missing him like crazy.

PugsWife4ever · #6 04-23-2012, 07:16 PM

@csgirl- you really aren't alone but i totally feel what you are saying about the lonely late nights. it is very hard when i hang up with him and know i won't talk to him til the next day. i am so happy i found this website because i don't feel i have anyone in my life who understands why i am doing this but him and i do feel that i have somewhat isolated myself as well. it's ok to have nights like that. it will happen :-)

csgirlalways · #7 04-23-2012, 09:31 PM

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Originally Posted by baskok1122

@csgirl- you really aren't alone but i totally feel what you are saying about the lonely late nights. it is very hard when i hang up with him and know i won't talk to him til the next day. i am so happy i found this website because i don't feel i have anyone in my life who understands why i am doing this but him and i do feel that i have somewhat isolated myself as well. it's ok to have nights like that. it will happen :-)

I know I'm not alone alone. Just lately after everyone's asleep, I can't sleep and it's one of the times that I miss him the most. Very few people in my life are supportive of my choice to be with C, which is honestly fine with me because I've realized that there's nothing I could do or say that would make them understand.

I just want him home.

InmateLover67 · #8 04-23-2012, 09:35 PM

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Originally Posted by csgirlalways

I got two phone calls today, which was wonderful. But here it is almost 1 a.m., kids are asleep and it's way too quiet. I live with my second parents and they are wonderful people and supportive of my relationship, I have people I talk to from church...kind of. But I still feel alone. I never go out because I don't really hang out with anyone around here...and it seems like everyone's always too busy anyway.

Sorry for the pity party rant....just needed to get this out somewhere.

Be present to the quietness and know that with each new day, he is one day closer to being home.

It sure makes it nice when you have people around you that are supportive, I know I really appeciate that.

Enjoy your quiet time....rest and have sweet sleep. Tomorrow is a new day

Peace~

bestmom3911 · #9 04-25-2012, 07:20 AM

I was so used to my fiance holding me at night as I slept and since he's been locked up I haven't been able to sleep and when I do sleep I have nightmares of him leaving me or cheating on my and breaking my heart. I feel like I'm so alone and forgotten since he got locked up

RLF5400 · #10 04-25-2012, 07:43 AM

Every feel completely alone?

Yes.... I just miss my girl, every minute, ever hour of ever day.. Making hours seem like days,, and days seem like eternity... I pray every day for this nightmare to be over...

Emptiness isn't loneliness, it's missing her that's the hard part...

csgirlalways · #11 04-25-2012, 01:04 PM

I knew you guys would understand...at the same time, my heart breaks for each and every one of you because it's so hard. Thank you all for responding...if any of you need anyone to talk to, feel free to PM me any time.