I'm putting up walls...ALREADY

[Zuweee]

My boyfriend goes in May 4th, but it's like I'm putting walls up. The little time we have together has been good, we both try not to argue over the little things. It's killing me, I think about when he'll leave 100 times a day. No matter how hard I try, I can't help but think I won't get to see his precious face daily. I'm going to college right now, and he's my best friend. I mean he would drive me to 8am classes when he doesn't have to be at school until 3! He helps me feel strong and motivated being away from home by myself. I find myself being distant, and I know its just me trying to prepare. I know I won't be able to call and be with him whenever I want to, but it upsets me that I'm being like this. It's like I'm pulling away and cutting back on communication because I know whats coming. I would love to spend every second of every day with him until he leaves, but I know that's unrealistic. I'm just really scared. I know I can do this, but no one else out of my friends from home or university have any clue what I'm going through... :'(