Just sad - Hysterectomy means no children for Me and my MWI Mate

[Onedaycloser13]

Originally Posted by Zachary's Woman

I had the surgery early Wednesday mornin,, after some few complications with fever,, swelling and constipation,, I am home.. I haven't been able to talk to Poppi bcus I miscalculated how much money was on the phone so when he finally did call,, the balance wasn't high enough to complete the call,,,and BOY,, did the tears start flowing then.... He called back twice,,, the 1st time,, place of his name,, he said, "Everything gonna be alright." Second time,, he said,, "I love u P.I.T.A (pain in the ass).. I really felt better..
I'm sore,, and crampy. Since I have a history with addiction,,, I have to play it safe when it comes to medication. While in the hospital,, they gave me a Morphine pump which all I have to do is press a button when I started feeling pain and the pump would administer the morphine. I asked them to take me off that and just keep the Motrin comin . They discharged me home with Percocet which I would take is the pain got unbearable but for now I'll take the Motrin,,, HAPPILY,, . I'm tryin to stay in an upbeat mood..
My other children are grown,,, 21,,20,, and 13.. I didn't really have this big huge desire to have children again,, but once the Dr. said it wasn't going to be possible,, that's when i started feeling a sudden feeling of loss.. then on top of that,,knowing Poppi doesn't have kids and I took away any chances of US having children together,, just made my SOUL SAD.. But things are brightening up with each day... Thank you guys....

Same thing happened to me, as soon as I realized I couldn't have anymore it hit me hard. Then people would tell me I was really young to have had the surgery, that would bring it all back. Now, I am okay with it, but it did take me a minute. You know they kept telling me while I was in the hospital that they were trying to make the surgery an outpatient, but I stayed in the hospital longer with it than a C-section. Just don't get it. Oh, and that morphine drip...I think I was so out of it I was pushing buttons just for the hell of it! Glad you are feeling a little better.