Thought it was supposed to get easier

[myonlylove95]

I thought that as each day went by it would get easier to handle. My love has only been gone for 4 months and I still have 8 years to go. It seems I have more bad days than good anymore. I am having to move to my nephew's house and it is obvious that his wife doesn't want me there but I have no choice. No where else to go. I am selling everything I own so I can move into a room from a 3 bedroom house. All I will have left is my 1969 camper and my truck. My love is in Kentucky and I'm in NC. I have seriously considered hooking up the camper and moving to Kentucky but I don't know anyone there and would be completely alone but closer to my love. I had to clean out his shed today and kept falling apart. I thought I was stronger than this. I'm trying so hard to hold onto my faith and whatever hope I may have. It just seems that when it rains it pours and the storms have been pretty bad lately. Thank God for PTO. You all have kept me from falling apart completely. He and I have been together for 20 years and are celebrating our 17th wedding anniversary in August. Never thought it would be like this. I admire you ladies that have been waiting for years. I can only hope that I can learn to have that kind of strength. He is my world and I will never give up but I do get tired. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. God Bless.

[Nieves915]

I am so sorry that this is hard for you. I can totally relate. You do have a long time to go and I pray that you find a way to get through it. You know that before a blessing comes the storm..... so hold on to that.... everything happens for a reason, we have no idea why we go through the things we go through. I pray your strength in the Lord and I know that this is a bittersweat wedding anniversary,,, I wish there were words that would heal your hurt... Im sorry your hurting just doesnt cut it.........
But know that you are not alone,, there are women here who have been here for a very long, time,, when you get discouraged go on the they are home site,,, read some happy reuninions and know that yours is coming someday as well.. everyday apart is a day closer to being together.

[BrandonsBabe]

You get tougher as it goes on. It never gets "easier," but you learn to cope with things better. Stay strong, lady. You can do it.

[Scotties_Girl21]

Its what you make it sweetie. And I understand trust me, financial struggles, family etc. Make it even harder. Only thing you can do is keep your head up and try and stay strong and positive. I hope everything works out for you and your struggles soon end.
:Goodluck:

Every day brings me one day closer to you....<3

[myonlylove95]

Thank you all for your support. My PTO family will keep my strength up. I love reading the reunion stories. They lift my spirits. I hang on to my faith and my hubby is my rock even from behind bars. He is always encouraging me and making me smile. One day at a time.

[Damask8]

It only gets worse before it gets better, but it WILL get better, change is so hard, and your'e going to have to adapt to a new life that you never dreamed of, but love will see you through, stay strong and you can lean on me.

[shaunna]

I dont think it gets easier it just gets 'different' as people learn to adapt and work through the pain. *huge hugs* sorry you are going through a rough patch