I'm back from Honduras, and today I'm losing it.

[Mrs Alfaro]

Hi everbody, as some of you may know my husband took vonlutary departure about 4 weeks ago. I went to visit him in Honduras for 2 wks and I'm just getting back. Well needless to say its very different but I could definatly live there if I had to. Ok while I was there for 2 wks we decided that I would come back to Florida sell off as much as I could and come back to honduras while we wait for him to be allowed back, we've already filed the I 130 to begin thw whole process. Today I think it really registered what I'm about to do and I completly lost it. I'm at work and I can't stop crying I'm mad as hell I'm hurt and I can't even say why exactly I'm crying, I have 3 daughters from a previous marriage they're dad is a god send he's agreed to take care of the girls as long as it takes. I'm so confused I have less than 3 wks to get rid of everything that I have plus 2 dogs and I'm terrified. I know I can get all the material things back but I feel so misplaced right now I don't know what to do. I know I'm ranting but I have no where else to turn to right now. The place where we are supposed to live is so nice my husband has a house that's considered a mantsion compared to all the others. I don't know what's gotten into me. Has any one else complety given up everything for a chance of a better future in the long run. Ok I'm gonna shut up now.

[negretelove]

(((((hugs)))))

take a deep breath

i thought dealing with hubby being in prison was a roller-coaster but the roller-coaster really hit when deportation hit. You are going to have your up and down moments just stay focused on the goal and the happy forever after.

it sounds like your LO has a chance to come back so your journey outside the US may be temporary not like most of us who have to make a lifetime decision to move with our LO.

Just take it one step at a time and know that you always have the chance to come back if needed. look at this as an extended vacation with lots of adventures and memories you and your LO will have for a lifetime.

Crying is good and letting him know what you are going through is the best way to keep your relationship going and getting your needs met

[Mrs Alfaro]

Thanks Negrete, I'm feeling a lot better now after all this I turned in my two weeks notice @ work and my boss said don't do that let's just say you're taking a personal leave of absence. She's going to put it in writing that when I do return I will have a job so that's one thing I don't have to worry about. I did tak to my husband and he's so understanding he just kept saying tell me what to do. I was just having a moment and I'm sure it won't be the last thanks so much for responding and I'm sure I will be back another day with another rant. Again thanks thanks thanks.

[He&me]

I have done this, I left back all I had, first I was exited but when it it me, I was a crying confused person. The result was good, I would do it again and I think the best you can do is try to focus on what you get.
You are lucky to know you can comeback and your job is still here.
Please take the time to say goodby to everybody, to see what wonderful place you left to go in to a great future with your husband.
All will be good and to go in to a new life is wonderful and a great experiment.
Good luck.