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Old 09-15-2013, 04:11 PM
indyroxx indyroxx is offline
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Hi all,

My name is Elizabeth - but I go by Eli. I currently live in Bend, Oregon. I met my boyfriend in Laurel, Montana where we lived together for 5 years. We met in 2008.

He is Paranoid Schizophrenic and has has quite a colorful past - I on the other hand have not. We are complete opposites in so many ways - but I have struggled with anxiety and an eating disorder since the age of 11 - so even though I do not hear voices or see things - I am nonetheless haunted by an internal dialogue of self-doubt and self-hate and in 2000 after spending time in treatment I had to realize I will never be okay inside - it is this eternal struggle that my boyfriend and I both share that allow us to truly understand and accept each other for who we are and our limitations. He is the first person who made me feel like it was okay to just be me and that I would never be a career person, that I would never be able to finish college... He was proud to work and provide and he wanted me to be able to stay home if I needed to because of my anxiety.

My Mom was diagnosed with breast cancer in the summer of 2011 and my BF and I started to talk about moving to Oregon - he was on parole and in the spring of 2012 he applied for an Interstate Compact. He had clean record since being released from jail, his PO was encouraging and was confident my BF would be allowed to move to Oregon. But... Oregon denied my BF because he as an open case in California.

He wanted to kill himself so I would have to move to Oregon. He couldn't forgive himself for being the reason I couldn't be with my Mom through her cancer ordeal. I'm her only kid... So my BF decompensated - I can't go into all of the details... But eventually he missed a monthly check-in with his PO - his PO came to our house on June 13, 2013 - at that time my BF was not there.

My BF was very sick and very paranoid - he went on the run and about three weeks later was arrested - a 6 hour stand-off... Thankfully he gave up his gun and surrendered with out a fight.

Now... he is waiting on a Probation Violation and after that the Feds will prosecute him for possession of a weapon.

We are hoping and praying he will be able to serve the sentences concurrently and that he will get no longer than 5 years - I just don't know as a Paranoid Schizophrenic if he can survive a longer sentence.

I am honored and proud to stand by his side. I have come to know and respect the intensity and tragic nature of Schizophrenia. It's been a harrowing journey and I am just praying he can find the strength to make it through his sentence without losing his mind.

At this point in time we are looking at two federal prisons (Montana doesn't have one and that is where his case is out of). We are looking at Sheridan, Oregon and FDC - Sea-Tac.

I look forward to being a prison wife (although not married) and look forward to meeting you all.

Eli (Elizabeth)
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Old 09-15-2013, 08:22 PM
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You have a long road ahead of you. I admire your loyalty, support and strength . He is a very lucky to have you . I wish you continued luck
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Old 09-15-2013, 11:44 PM
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I'm lucky to have him - he was healthy and stable for 4 years and truly the best man I've ever met and I've been lucky enough to date some pretty nice guys.

I understand he has a severe mental illness and I would never turn my back on him for something that isn't his fault.

I realize a lot of people would warn me to protect myself - but I've had to protect myself from a lot less tortured people - who have no excuse whatsoever for being a prick or a bitch. Just sayin.

He's a good man. I have no doubts about that. I'm going to bust his ass from day one till the end of time - to be the best man he can be - regardless of whether he's out as a civilian or behind bars.

My best hope for him is that he finds the strength he needs to fight his demons in the most difficult situation he could be in - prison.

We are lucky to have each other - he gives me a reason to be a better woman, to challenge myself and to know EXACTLY where I stand - do good, be good. Period.
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Old 09-16-2013, 07:42 AM
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Welcome to Prison Talk Eli. I'm sorry for what you guys are facing. It's going to be completely up to the bop where he eventually does his time. Every prison has a psych department, but there are more resources in the federal medical centers. Don't be surprised if he is sent far away though, it does happen regularly. If he and his lawyer can decide on a prison, and can get the sentencing judge to recommend it, the bop says they will at least consider the request when deciding where to designate him. Here's the link to the federal prison forums for all things bop.

and the Husbands/boyfriends in Prison forum too.
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Old 09-16-2013, 04:34 PM
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Welcome to the forums Elizabeth I'm sorry to hear about the situation with your boyfriend, I wish you both luck going forward

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