He left.. just like everyone said he would.

[ronnie<3]

i havent been able to come on here in 4 months. it was too painful. but my man came home, i went with his sister to pick him up and he ended up moving in with me. bad mistake. his family put so much pressure on me constantly saying "your going to keep him out of trouble, right?" or "your going to take care of him?". i made the mistake of supporting him and letting him live with me, getting him a phone, buying his cigarettes, anything he needed. we constantly fought. but i still loved him. i still do. i dont know why. we made plans to spend new years eve/new years together, just us. but of course as soon as he was home, he wanted to spend it with his "friends", the same people who disappeared as soon as he got locked up. so that turned into a fight because i didnt want to spend it with them. even though we were fighting, new years eve i got a tattoo for him. a dove, with handcuffs on the wings and a letter in its mouth. he broke up with me the next day. i still feel like its partially my fault, like if i didnt say anything we might still be together. i had a bad feelign in my stomach that something wasnt right so i was upset allll new years. i finally talked to him about it. my exact words, while balling my eyes out were "i feel like i'm going to lose you and i dont want that to happen". his response "well i feel like maybe we should just be friends." after all i did for him. i hadnt seen him since, until last week. our mutual friend was home from NC and i ended up seeing him, well pretty much hanging out with him, 3 days in a row with her. part of me misses him but part of me is like thank goodness i got out of that relationship. but i also found out, the girl he started talking to after me might be pregnant. but she doesnt know if its his, or her ex boyfriend (who is also one of his close friends. no sense of loyalty there, right!?) i dont know. i could go so much more into detail than i am, but i've chosen to surpress the memories, good and bad, because its something i honestly want to erase from my past. i pick such winners. ughhhh

[ronnie<3]

oh, i also saw a 'psychic' who said he cheated on me. in prison. with his bunky. greatttt

[InmateLover67]

Originally Posted by ronnie<3

i havent been able to come on here in 4 months. it was too painful. but my man came home, i went with his sister to pick him up and he ended up moving in with me. bad mistake. his family put so much pressure on me constantly saying "your going to keep him out of trouble, right?" or "your going to take care of him?". i made the mistake of supporting him and letting him live with me, getting him a phone, buying his cigarettes, anything he needed. we constantly fought. but i still loved him. i still do. i dont know why. we made plans to spend new years eve/new years together, just us. but of course as soon as he was home, he wanted to spend it with his "friends", the same people who disappeared as soon as he got locked up. so that turned into a fight because i didnt want to spend it with them. even though we were fighting, new years eve i got a tattoo for him. a dove, with handcuffs on the wings and a letter in its mouth. he broke up with me the next day. i still feel like its partially my fault, like if i didnt say anything we might still be together. i had a bad feelign in my stomach that something wasnt right so i was upset allll new years. i finally talked to him about it. my exact words, while balling my eyes out were "i feel like i'm going to lose you and i dont want that to happen". his response "well i feel like maybe we should just be friends." after all i did for him. i hadnt seen him since, until last week. our mutual friend was home from NC and i ended up seeing him, well pretty much hanging out with him, 3 days in a row with her. part of me misses him but part of me is like thank goodness i got out of that relationship. but i also found out, the girl he started talking to after me might be pregnant. but she doesnt know if its his, or her ex boyfriend (who is also one of his close friends. no sense of loyalty there, right!?) i dont know. i could go so much more into detail than i am, but i've chosen to surpress the memories, good and bad, because its something i honestly want to erase from my past. i pick such winners. ughhhh

Count your blessings hun, you deserve so much more.

Have you considered counseling? The only reason I ask this is, maybe talking to a professional would help you learn why you choose the cheesy men you choose.

Again, count your blessings and keep on keeping on.

Peace~

[ronnie<3]

i have considered it, but i cant afford it


thank you so much<3

Originally Posted by InmateLover67

Count your blessings hun, you deserve so much more.

Have you considered counseling? The only reason I ask this is, maybe talking to a professional would help you learn why you choose the cheesy men you choose.

Again, count your blessings and keep on keeping on.

Peace~

[InmateLover67]

Originally Posted by ronnie<3

i have considered it, but i cant afford it


thank you so much<3

I would call around and see if you might be able to connect with one that works on a sliding fee scale.

If there is a will, there is a way....Hun, step out and ask around...there has got to be some resources for you.

I can get counseling through my local mental healthy clinic....and it is based on my income.

Considering it and looking into it are two different things. I really hope you can find someone to help you.

My best

Peace~

[hisbabygurl2014]

I am really sorry, like inmatelover said you should coun t your blessing. Never second guess yourself either. You knew something was up so dont blame yourself. he is a loser , and you dont deserve that.

[ronnie<3]

Right. I just wish I woulda listened to everybody when they tried to warn me. But I'm the kinda girl who has to learn the hard way lol

Originally Posted by hisbabygurl2014

I am really sorry, like inmatelover said you should coun t your blessing. Never second guess yourself either. You knew something was up so dont blame yourself. he is a loser , and you dont deserve that.

[hisbabygurl2014]

Originally Posted by ronnie<3

Right. I just wish I woulda listened to everybody when they tried to warn me. But I'm the kinda girl who has to learn the hard way lol

Oh i am a nice girk, and i did learn the hard way. So take this as a lesson and move on like that.

[Sheryl P.]

I'm sorry it did not work out the way you wanted.
Life is full of things to be learned.
I agree that therapy is a good idea and nothing to be ashamed of,it helps you learn what you need and want as well as how to get those needs meet in a healthy way.
Huggs.

[La Divina]

Awwww mamaz u will be ok as time passes i know is hard im going through the same thing except im pregnant by my ex ..i waited for him,gave him money,bought his cigerrates n secluded myself from everyone for him, he decided his boys were more important cheated n lied to me and now has a GF who was dating my brother yeap nasty and has some other girl Pregnant..so this is a reminder that there is always someone who is goin through it worst then u!! at first i was really hurt and i still am but slowly time starts its healing process and i have realized that no matter how much i love him hes not good for me at all so i have put that in my head ..good luck to u an myself ..like my sister says no one dies out of love

[shaunna]

I am so sorry to hear that Time heals all wounds, I know it may be hard to see it right now but things will be okay in the end. We live and learn, as much as it sucks going through a break up it helps us to appreciate the 'right one' when they come along. One day when you are ready whether it's weeks/months/years from now, I hope you find someone that treats you the way you deserve to be treated

[Adamsmom94]

Originally Posted by ronnie<3

i havent been able to come on here in 4 months. it was too painful. but my man came home, i went with his sister to pick him up and he ended up moving in with me. bad mistake. his family put so much pressure on me constantly saying "your going to keep him out of trouble, right?" or "your going to take care of him?". i made the mistake of supporting him and letting him live with me, getting him a phone, buying his cigarettes, anything he needed. we constantly fought. but i still loved him. i still do. i dont know why. we made plans to spend new years eve/new years together, just us. but of course as soon as he was home, he wanted to spend it with his "friends", the same people who disappeared as soon as he got locked up. so that turned into a fight because i didnt want to spend it with them. even though we were fighting, new years eve i got a tattoo for him. a dove, with handcuffs on the wings and a letter in its mouth. he broke up with me the next day. i still feel like its partially my fault, like if i didnt say anything we might still be together. i had a bad feelign in my stomach that something wasnt right so i was upset allll new years. i finally talked to him about it. my exact words, while balling my eyes out were "i feel like i'm going to lose you and i dont want that to happen". his response "well i feel like maybe we should just be friends." after all i did for him. i hadnt seen him since, until last week. our mutual friend was home from NC and i ended up seeing him, well pretty much hanging out with him, 3 days in a row with her. part of me misses him but part of me is like thank goodness i got out of that relationship. but i also found out, the girl he started talking to after me might be pregnant. but she doesnt know if its his, or her ex boyfriend (who is also one of his close friends. no sense of loyalty there, right!?) i dont know. i could go so much more into detail than i am, but i've chosen to surpress the memories, good and bad, because its something i honestly want to erase from my past. i pick such winners. ughhhh

Hi there, thanx for sharing I know it's hard to do. I sure do hope u know that u are worth much more than the way u have been treated! You sound like a loving caring woman, unfortunately u just found a man that didnt deserve u. When God closes a door he always opens a window...it may not sound comforting right now, but, one day when u least expect it the man of ur dreams will come along. Someone who can do for u as u do for him. I too am a "caretaker" always thought i could "fix" the man. I've had many heartaches finding out this just isn't true. I go to counseling now and am in a relationship with a man who loves me for me. He doesnt care if i have money cell phones or anything else, all he wants is my love. I know if i can find this u can too. Keep Ur heart open...and ur eyes..lol.. God will bless u with someone whom u can be happy and in love with.

[prettywings773]

soory this happened. don't blame yourself. hind sight is 20/20. like others said be thankful that you are free from that drama. as far as counseling maybe you can find a support group. Things will get better.

[ilovecoffee]

I am sorry he was/is such a jerk. You didnt do nothing wrong. I hope things turn around for you and bring you great happiness!

[LadeeInWaiting]

I am so sorry. He sounds like he didnt deserve you anyway !!!

[MRS.GRIFFIN]

So sorry that happen to you. Look at it this way at least you found out earlier before you said i do! what a jerk!!! You deserve better. I cant say i know that feeling, but keep your head up.....all your sisters here at pt will support you.let go and let god. Remember things happen for a reason and we dont know why. Do you pray? Im sending prayers your way for strength.

[ronnie<3]

thank you to everyone for your kind words and support. it truly means the world to me to know complete strangers care, and we're all connected in some way. <3<3<3