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gagirl770 · #**126** 11-29-2005, 07:50 AM

God Bless you and your son....you are in my prayers

RMD4EVER · #**127** 11-29-2005, 02:43 PM

tina Everyday Is A Step Closer To You Healing Within You Know I Want Only The Best For You Cause Thats What You Deserve The Very Best One Day All This Will Be Very Far Behind You And You Will Eventually Meet The Right Man For You And Zac God Bless You Both Hang In There Girl I Love You

abtchonamission · #**128** 12-11-2005, 03:00 PM

(((((Tat'sBaby))))

As I read this, the thing that really stuck out to me the most is how you've done what's right for you and your son, as well as for Tat...you are a strong woman, and as hard as it is to take away their soft spot to land, it's the best thing, and the most loving thing, you could have done for him.

I'll keep Tat in my prayers, and a candle lit for him.

Trisha

TZT4$ure4Life · #**129** 12-12-2005, 11:54 AM

Hello Everyone and Merry Christmas...

Well its almost Christmas, and I just wanted to give everyone an update as to how everything is going in my life..
I am doing alright and so is my son. I have been working and getting ready for Christmas.
I have not had any contact with Tat other than a phone call here and there.
He did call last Thursday, I think it was.. Just to say hello and check on us.
His sister had just gotten his heart meds for you, and I guess you can say, in his own little sick mind, he thought that he was now 10 ft tall and bullet proof because he had them.. ( he thinks as long as he takes the meds he is ok, thats not true..)
his heart is only pumping at 20% and the taking the herion, meth doesnt help..
and I am sure it doesnt help that he shoots them as well....
but he thought that...
we talked just for a little while...
He once again told me he loved us and that he never meant to hurt us, but not in any of our conversation to he talk about getting help.. he told me that he was ready to die.. that he had hurt the people that loved him the most and that he was tired.. and just didnt care anymore...
I had to fight back the tears but told him, I prayed for his recovery and soul everyday and night.. that I hoped someday he found self worth and reliazed
he was worth fighting for..
He once again, asked me what it was that I saw in him, that he couldnt see in himself.. and I simply said,,, a human being..
I told him that I loved him and always will. He asked to speak to "his son"
and I didnt say anything.. the phone he was using went dead and I havent heard from him since..
I have been having bad dreams and thoughts and I am so afraid that as
Christmas day gets closer he will OD... I just have this very strange feeling..
I woke up screaming about a week ago at around 3 am in the morning...
I heard a man saying " help me, someone help me please" it was so real it was scary.. the same night I spoke with him, he told me that his chest had started hurting him the very morning I had that dream.. that was very scary to me..
SO I dont know what will be come of Tat just keep him in your prayers and thoughts..
I still wonder how people have so much pain that they feel they are no good for nothing??????

Have a blessed and Merry Christmas

Tina

TZT4$ure4Life · #**130** 12-14-2005, 02:30 PM

Hope all is well with everyone..
As for me, not to much new...
I met with Tat last night, and got some answers that I was looking for.
And finally for once, I was able to leave him and not cry..
I finally understood who and what he is...
It has taken a very long time for me to do that..
Tat is who , he is.. I cant and wont judge him on the life he lives, just because I feel or need him to be something he is not.. He tried and could not and I cant fault him for that.. Not that it doesnt break my heart to see someone killing themselves but I understand now...
He isnt doing so good and has had several small heart pains, I believe that it is only a matter of time before he dies, and so does he.. He said he wanted to make things right with me before he goes and that he loves me and that he loves his son.. I told him when he hugged me that I was angry with him, and he said he was angry with himself also , but to understand he is where he wants to be.. is it a sickness yes, is it an honest answer yes.. and for that I cant hate him.. and wont
He and I and ZAC had dinner together last night and it was nice.. he asked me to please forgive him and I told him I did...
I am glad and very thankful for last night, because when he is gone and I will have a happy memory of him now..
I cried but for only a brief time, it saddens my heart to know that he is so lost that he wants to die to keep from feeling the pain.. and thats what he told me.
If I could change things for him, I would be I cant.. All I can do is pray for him and pray for his recovery and if that doesnt happen.. Then I pray that when he finally does leave this earth that some how some way he finds peace....
and that he is not sick or tormented any longer..
I got a really good Christmas Present last night.. for a few hours I got
"MY SWEET TAT" back...
But I also was Thankful that God took me and spared me from his life style..
I have learned quite alot from Tat some good and some bad.. I choose not to dwell on the bad any longer and even though Tat and I will never ever be as one again.. I know that he is a very important part of my past and I will always love him for the person that I saw when the drugs werent there...

To all of you.. I pray that this Christmas you get blessed as I did last night,
It truly was a blessing and I dont know how to explain that...
But I am a peace now...
and I believe that even though he is not clean and still and addict in some small way I believe that Tat is too....

God bless you all and Merry Christmas....

witchlinblue · #**131** 12-14-2005, 03:05 PM

Merry Christmas to you too Tattsbaby. I hope that that peace you feel will be with you and your son always and that Tatt will find a way to help himself.
Hugs (you have come a long way in the opposite direction from addiction)

AmyLynn · #**132** 12-14-2005, 03:11 PM

Tina I'm glad that you found peace with all that you have gone though with him. you have come along way.And I wish nothing but the best for you and your son. and of course TAT!!

KAINZ · #**133** 12-28-2005, 02:06 PM

Hey Tina
Long Time Glad You Are Doing Well My Nightmare Just Began Lol
But Im One Smarter And Love Sucks Merry Christmas & Happy Happy New Year Trisha

TZT4$ure4Life · #**134** 12-30-2005, 02:38 PM

Happy New Years to Everyone!!!

This will be my last post on this ....
I just wanted to let you all know how much I love you all and to say thank you for all the support .. that I have gotten from you all.

2005 has been a rough one for me and my son..
But we are doing just fine now...
It amazes me how when something so bad happens to you. And you think that life, just isnt worth anything.. suddenly things slap you in the face and say.. Oh that is why this happend!!!

Going through all that Tat and I was very hard..
But looking back on it some 4 mths later . I know now that GOD knew exactly what he was doing.. I for one, never would have thought that I could be so strong. Or that my words and story would help so many...

I took off my engagement ring and placed it on my right hand the day, he left and beat me up..I placed it there to remind me of all that he put me through..
Last night, I took off my engagement ring and I put it in a tiny box and put it far back in my closet....
As I do with the bad memories of that time, I placed them far back in my mind..
I know now that God had a reason for placing Tat in my life.. and I pray for him every night,, as I ask that each of you do also..
He is still a 'lost soul'

On New Years Day, I will take all the letters that he wrote me and all the ones that I have and I will burn them.. As I will many pictures as well.

This is my way of how to they say " Out with the Old and In with the New"
I know I must move on in my life and having those around is, one thing I dont need...

I also wanted to share with you all that I have a new man in my life. And he is wonderful, he is a good man, a GOD fearing man, and yes he is an inmate... I know.... but like I said sometimes you cant see why somethings happen untill its said and done.
He has helped me so much to learn not only about God and his blessing, but about myself and what life is about and how it really should be. And how wonderful love can be..
We are friends first and the rest, I believe is and will follow...
I cant explain the feelings that he has given to me. I know that my path was set before me to make my way to him...
I never ever thought that I would want to see the inside of another prison, but I cant wait to be able to go and see him..
Call me what you may.. I know that this man is nothing like the other men in my life ever...
I thank God for him everyday...
The letters he writes to me are so wonderful, he asks nothing and demands nothing yet gives me everything from behind the wall.
He truly is my blessings for all the hell, I have ever went through in my life.
So please wish me luck in this New Year.
And even if this new man was not in my life. I still would be "Throwing out the old and bringing in the new"
I deserve that and so does my son...

To each of you that may find yourself in the same situation..
Remember this above all....

If you live with an addict and your not an addict you will live life, like and addict..
and that no amount of love that you can give to them will change them, untill they are ready to cry out to God above for help....

I wish you all and your loved ones
much peace and blessing for the coming New Year...

It truly will be a New Year for me and my son....

I plan on changing my screen name when the new year gets here at last..
I was thinking maybe Zacsmom or ANEWME....

love ya all

Tina

AmyLynn · #**135** 12-30-2005, 04:53 PM

Tina I'm so happy for you and your son that you have learned so much in life. It is to bad that Tat cant beat his addiction. But I will keep him and the other lost souls in my thoughts at night!!!

silent'sgirl · #**136** 12-30-2005, 05:17 PM

You are in my thoughts & prayers............these drugs are so addictive and too easy to get. It makes me sick and sad

Drugs destroy so many people & families. YOU keep on being a strong woman and take care of yourself & child! Bless you both.

TZT4$ure4Life · #**137** 01-31-2006, 02:58 PM

Just an update on how I am doing..

Me, I am awsome!!!!!!

Life is good, I am getting ready to go back to school and get my nursings degree.
I have met a wonderful man..
Who is becoming the love of my life very very fast..
He is a GOD fearing man, no game, no drugs, no anything..
Just lots of love for me and my son...

And he is also behind the wall..
I look back over my life since Aug and have come to know and understand that GOD is good and kind and will not put more on us than we can handle.

I also have learned that everything happens for a reason.

If I were to see Tat today.. I would tell him Thank you.
Thank you for putting me through what you put me through.
You didnt beat me down, you didnt destroy my world, and you didnt destory my abilty to love and be loved..
What you did was hurt me in a real good way..
Had you not hurt me. I would have never found GOD, strength in myself that I never knew was there, a sense of pride in who and what I am and what I stand for in life.
And the most awsome man that I have ever met here on earth..
so yes Tat hurt me but he hurt me in a real good way..

Anyone ever heard that song?

So I just wanted to check in and say hello and let you all know that.
I truly am moving on......
and I am happy ...

Tat is on his way back to prison. GOD knows that he must have his hands on him because he should have been long dead.
They came to my home about a week ago ( cops ) with 2 dogs there were 5 cop cars.. He has warrants out for his arrest in another county..
and they now consider him armed and dangerous...
I pray for his soul each night and that GOD will heal him and give him grace and recovery. And that they do catch him before he dies on the streets...

Take care to you all and I pray all is doing well...

Thank you all for your love and your support

Blessings
Tina

P.S

I have to found out how to change my screen name.. I am TATSBABY NOMORE....

mrsnicolodi · #**138** 02-11-2006, 06:49 PM

Tina I found your post and just read it. I am so sorry to hear what happened to you. That is the fear in all of our minds that we hope does not happen. I am so glad that you are moving on and not rumbling in Tat. Now that I read what happened I wonder what would happen to my husband. He has always had a weed and drinking problem. I understand the weed, which when I met him we were both doing it which is fine. But it seems like after he got out of county when our son was born he just steadily went down hill. He started drinking MORE and smoking MORE. We wouldnt have any food, I would wonder how to buy diapers, food, pay the rent, gas, and I was the only one working and I was having to buy it for him because I thought that I had to hold on to him because of our son. Finally back last year in January he came home from work and I wasnt home yet and a co-worker had bought some crack. Well they both ended up buying it and smoking it in my trailor and he didnt tell me but I knew it. My husband has a temper and after I beat on him for about 10 minutes and he just sat there and didnt try to hit me back I knew it. he didnt have to admit it. So me and Jaydon left. 2 weeks later he was arrested for resisting arrest when he took our son and wouldnt give him back. I should of known then that it was time for him to go back. I didnt know he would end up with prison time. He did 30 days for the resisting arrest and of course dummy me thought he would really change so I bonded him out on the driving on suspended license. He didnt do any crack after that. But the whole time he was in county he swore up and down he would get a job, stop drinking and slow down on the weed. he would do good for about a week and then he would stay outside all night getting drunk and come fall in bed. Then he got to where he didnt want to watch our son. Everytime I came home he was drunk and ill temper towards me. I finally had enough and I did stay with him, but I paid my bills then gave my money to someone at work to hold until I needed it. I didnt tell him I had any money left over. I also then opened a checking account in my name. One month before he was due to go to court he got rearrested on driving and this time he was actually going to work. But he got right back out and started it up again. Wrecked my car, tryed to spend my money on beer. He is a very good con artist when it comes to me. He uses that whole oh baby I love you I promise I will pay you back Im going towork tomorrow. Never happened. His last month he was out before he turned his self into the courts, we might of made love three times. He was sober about once. I actually fell out of love with him for a while. For the 7 months before he went to prison I could not wait until he went so i could get away from him. I felt like that was my only way. I dont want my son to grow up without a father. He loves his daddy soooo much and misses him. He does not understand why daddy is not here. After he went I would watch my son stand on the porch yelling daddy get me. And there was no daddy. I really do not know why I actually married him because I couldnt stand him at the time. But some days he would be so loving to me, rub my feet when I came home from work, did our laundry, took care of my son so I could sleep. He gave me his promise that when he got out he would do better and this would be the absolute last time. I guess I want him to prove me wrong. I want him to do better for all of us and I figured if I married him he would know I am here for him as his wife not just his girlfriend. I told him I can divorce him just as quick as I married him so he has one chance when he gets out. If we go back to the bickering its done. I will not keep Jaydon from his daddy, but me and him are done for good and never again happen. He says he cant live without me and I am the best thing that ever happened to him. But we will see when he gets out. Out of all of the heartache that he caused me before he went, I love him more now then I have ever. It seems weird but I think I do have faith in him not to do that to us again and make a life for us. He has never done anything to harm Jaydon. The only time he ever put his life in danger ( that I think) was when he was 4 months old and was coming to pick me up from work and someone stopped him and sold him some crack. ofcourse he bought it and he smoked it in the car with my son. That was another time I beat the crap out of him. I have to say there are really 2 reasons for me to actually leave him with no chance of parole---if he hits me or my son or he cheats on me. Which hes had chances to cheat on me and hasnt so thats out of the question. Now I know some people who are going to read this are going to say I am stupid for loving him. He asked me why I love him so much and I put up with so much crap from him and I looked him dead in the face and said I really do not know Jeremy. I do not know why I love him so much that I would give him the shirt off of my back if he asked me for it. I really could not tell you. He has less then 9 months left. We have been talking about having another baby also. I really would love to but I want to make sure everything will be okay. I want him to be the MAN he says he is going to be and show me he has changed. Even if we have to move away from everyone we know. I think if we do stay here and he is around pot heads and alkys he will go right back to it. I printed out your story and if you do not mind I would like to send it to him. He might think I am trippin or being stupid but he will read it. He always reads everything I send him even if he knows Im bitching at him. So maybe he will read it and it will help him also to know what your son almost seen his daddy do and hope his son doesnt have to see his daddy like that.

TZT4$ure4Life · #**139** 02-13-2006, 09:38 AM

Its been a while since I updated this story..
Once agian, Tat is back in jail.. facing lots of charges and lots of time.
I hate it but I also know that God once again, spared his life..
Wish that he saw it as that but he doesnt and never will.

I went and say him and county, and said my good byes..
It amazed me how he thought that I was there for him...??
I thanked him, for making me stronger than I thought I was, and for teaching me the signs to look for in a drug user, and for makin me a better person. That is something that blew his mind when I said all that to him and more!!!
I dont know where his future lies at this point....
But its not with me !!!
I will always pray for him....

Mrs...I read your post and I have to say I am sorry that you have to deal with any of that.. But the fact is you are still with a man that smoked crack in front of your child...I have a problem with that.. even after all I have been with Tat I never allowed him to do it in front of my child ..

Seems like you have been through hell with this man, and still are at times.
My only advice to you would be this... you are not enough to change this man, and neither is your son.. he has to want and need to change because he wants better for himself, you and his son...
Just remember that.. and always go with what your first thogths are cause they probley are right on the nail..
do u feel like he has changed? do u feel he will come home and do what he needs to do?
Search you heart and your soul girl.. cause going through the hell is not worth it....

Blessing
Tina

mrsnicolodi · #**140** 02-13-2006, 05:51 PM

Jaydon was only 4 months ago when it happened. Which he risked alot by doing it. If a cop seen him he would of went to jail and DCF might of taken him or the crackhead could of killed him and took off with the car and him in the car seat all types of stuff. We havent had a big disagreement with that. Its not like everytime he got money he was off to buy it. Our problem was mostly week and drinking. He stayed drunk and high. If he wasnt he was the biggest as$hole. I really do think that he has changed. He told me that Saturday before he got to come see me they drug tested him. He said he didnt understand why and I asked him if he passed it and he said yes. He said its there and has been offered to him but he knew he couldnt do it. Which if you know my husband, you put something in front of him and offer it to him he will do it or take it. So for him to have the chance to get stoned and not do it proved alot to me. Like I keep telling my husband I am not trying to change him. I am trying to help him to make better choices for himself and his family. He has to be the one tho to say I want it or I dont. The only way to tell that he wants is when he gets out. If he goes back to his same ways, he is gone. I told him I would help him but I would not be with him. I wouldnt keep Jaydon from him either. It is so sad that he is a really good father, but behind his kids he is a different person. We will see on Nov 5th how it is going to be.

TZT4$ure4Life · #**141** 02-24-2006, 04:02 AM

Back with an update ......................

Life is good for me and my son....

Tat is sitting in county and waiting to go to court on several charges..

Charges that could put him away for many many years.. It breaks my heart to see him there, yet once again...

I do go and see him .. if that is wrong then, I am wrong..
It has nothing to do with wanting or needing him back in my life..
Its more, about that. I know that he is an addict and needs help..

If keeping him off the streets is by him sitting in jail then..I am thankful for that.....

He is back to his old self ...and even thought that "we would get back together"

That I can assure him and everyone else will not happen.
I will be there to be his friend and his friend only..

You dont just stop loving someone , with an addiction. You dont forget that they are human, and you dont forget the person they can be and are when the drugs arent with them.

It saddens me to go and see him, but I feel I must because I dont want to forget the man that I fail in love with.. or the person that hurt me so bad.

He makes no excuses for anything that he has done.

I pray for his soul everyday..
I am not sure what his life holds for him now, other than a life behind bars.

My son and I are doing well. And I do have bad days that I miss Tat so much.
But I carry on and I dont let it get me down...

I will post and let everyone know what is going on in my life from time to time..

I am happy and learning to love life and learning to love again.....

Blessings

Tina

AKA "Tatsbaby"

But really I am just me...............

someone that has love for an addict..
but has learned to love herself more..........

User9999 · #**142** 02-24-2006, 07:20 AM

As always you sound very strong. I'm happy you have found some amount of peace with everything, I just wish it could have all worked out the way you both had wanted.

It's very good of you to stay by his side and let him know he still has friends regardless of the struggles he faces and mistakes he makes.

Anyway I'm just proud ofhow you have com eout of all this and what a strong you woman you are. Probably stronger because of all this. You and your son will benefit from your strength.

Thanks for the update!

Erin

TZT4$ure4Life · #**143** 03-13-2006, 03:41 AM

Just an update .......

Adding another chapter to this part of my life..

I am doing ok..

Tat is sitting back in county and waiting to be moved to another county. Here in florida. To face the charges that they have against him.

Although, I do believe him, when he says he did not do anything that they say he did. He still have to go through the pain of going and seeing what is what up there.

I went to see him yesterday, and it was hard.. There sitting with me was his best friend, and there sitting by him was another friend whom was out only a month and is now back in facing another trip to the FLDOC...

I think, what gets me the most is that, Tat just can't get the concept that he is better than what he is living with or without me. I still see someone that is hurting someone that lives the only life he knows how to live. I get so mad an hurt, at him.

Looking at him, I still at times,can see the man that I fell in love with, an innocent child , but that is an adult but has no clue that life is so much more, than needles, money and the darkness he choose for himself.

He tells me that he cant feel GOD? How can anyone not feel GOD?
That breaks my heart so much. I question why I go and visit with him. I know that him and I are from 2 different sides of the world.
And why I fell in love with him, I dont know. I think it was because I am one of the few people that has ever accepted him for who he was when I met him. Now I still try to do that, but it seems to be getting harder and harder.
I know that there is alot about his addiction that I dont know or understand. But what I do know and understand is that
He is a living soul and even if he doesnt know it a child of GOD..
I try hard to be his friend.. I am wondering if I can still be his friend and still walk away. SO far its not working..

Its like he thinks that he and I are still one.. ???
I dont think he and I will ever be that way again, but one thing I do know is that he has my loyalty and a piece of my heart..and my love.

Loving Tat and going through all that I have been through has taught me so much. And with everything that he and I have been through I try to pull the good out of it and use that.

I will never turn my back on him.. if that is wrong then that is wrong. But I will never ever let him pull me down to where he once had me either. He is very demanding and is very quick tempered. I know he has to be hurting and I am so sorry for that. BUT I know that once again GOD has spared his life.. I dont think he get the fact that all things HAPPEN FOR A REASON......

I recently found his birth mother for him and she is alive and doing well. She is a wonderful person, and the story that follows her is a sad one.

Some of Tats pain is that for most of his life, even when he was a child he thought that his birth mother had left him in a drug house and just threw him away..

Please someone tell me, How do you let a child walk around thinking that the woman that gave birth to him, did that to him..
I am sure and conviced that is where most of his pain started!!!!

And I can assure you, after hearing his birth mothers story that was the last thing that was true..

She had been told that he died , in the child well fare system...
So you see they both carried around alot of pain all these years.

I was so happy and blessed to be able to bring them back together.
I only pray that he will heal Tats soul and some of the pain that he carrys within...

If this was the only reason that I was placed in his life. Then I welcome that even if in finding it, it caused me pain as well.

Unlike Tat, I take my pain and turn it in to a postive. Seeing him is hard so very hard. BUT I feel that I have to do it and that GOD wants me to be there for him.
I also know that GOD does not want me to lose me again in Tat and I will not do that ever again.

Untill the last breathe is gone in me I will believe that he can make changes in his life, but he has to be the one to do that. The love that I have or have had for him will not be enough to do anything unless he learns that GOD is good and he is real.

Tat trys so hard to be so big and bad...
Yet I see right through all is hurt and pain and I know that somewhere behind all those Tattoos and game is a man that
is loving and kind and is to stubburon to ever let that, show to others ..
He is gonna have to turn it over to GOD and let GOD and learn to love himself..

Please keep him in your prayers...

I will update again later............

much love and blessings

Tina

TZT4$ure4Life · #**144** 04-17-2006, 02:38 PM

Just me .......

Once again with an update...

Life is great and I am getting better and better everyday..

I am dealing with my co-depency and I am learning that I cant save the

world.. Or Tat for that matter.. He has his sister and brother now and his

birth mother. Thank God for that.. I feel as though a 1000 tons have been

lifted from my shoulders!!!!

You sure learn alot about yourself if you step back and take the time to do

so. All that I have been through has taught me alot and learned me alot also.

I only can hope that Tat learns from all he has been through..

Something tells me he never will!!!!

Blessings
Tina

*Jakes-girl · #**145** 04-17-2006, 03:40 PM

I how how it is to think they will never learn my man has been in and out of lock ups since he was 14 he served 16 months in a boot camp,1 year and 2 months in the county, another 60 days, 30 days, and 23 days in the county and is now in prison for 3-15 years!!!! we have been through alot and it keeps getting harder but i hope he sees this isnt the life he should want to live...

AnitaFoxx · #**146** 05-18-2006, 02:36 AM

You letter seems to being trying to tell me something. I got to give him up. He's found another love. The devil got my baby also.

AnitaFoxx · #**147** 05-18-2006, 02:54 AM

As soon you start going and having fun you might me somebody else. Cause life is to short for you to continue to serve him like you are his servant. Don't feel its wrong if the new man don't allow you too. I quess I am victim of serving also. They just don't want us. Your story is making it all to clear for me.

AnitaFoxx · #**148** 05-18-2006, 03:10 AM

Angel he loves you. But he knows he can't help himself, not yet anyway. Having children and he haven't got it altogether yet is not the best move. Of course you know that. But at least he wants to have one with you and try to keep you close is a good sign to me. But now I am a woman too, so I might fall for the same thing.See because the other girl's story is clear Tats don't love her anymore or he is incapable of showing love. My story is close to hers- he don't love me anymore either. But your story is a love story for sure. Jermey just needs a move away like you said and some AA and try to slow down, I think he will be alright. You stop beating up on him before you get out of hand and devil make mad.Hopefully a happily everafter.

Montana Girl · #**149** 05-20-2006, 08:29 PM

You are a very strong person to be able to do what you did. Its hard to be in love with an addict. I believe that GOD never gives us more than we can handle. What doesnt kill us can only make us stronger.

bluehorsebeach · #**150** 06-17-2006, 01:54 AM

Tina!

Hi I was online and decide to pull up Prison Talk to see if any of my friends were still kickin it around here. I can see you are still keeping the faith. Good girl. You have been such a help and inspiration to so many. I'm proud of you and I'm so glad that you and your son are doing ok. I didn't read the whole thread due to time but just picked up a few of your messages and I'm sorry that Tat is still the same. I am doing really well and SO ARE MY FRIENDS!! My two good friends that were in at the time that I used to talk on here (about 9-10 months ago) are out 7 months and 3 months and still sober, working, living with family or on their own and holding up their little end of the world. I needed to see someone I cared about make it after all these years. It does happen, just not as often as we'd like. I am in a relationship with one wonderful man who loves and spoils me and treats me like I've never been treated. I wish you the best Tina, you are on here for a purpose, but you know that already. Keep up the good work as long as you feel the calling. Blessings to you and yours! With much love and affection, Blue.

To all of you who follow Tina and who have had the experiences that she (and I) have had. My heart goes out to you. Keep the faith but please PLEASE, don't let those demons (drugs) hurt you through the person that you love. Take care.