Thoughts for today

[samiam158]

Today is a good day...yesterday I talked to Chris...sometimes the conversations are nothing more than "how are you" and at other times they become the calls you don't want to hang up on....Yesterday our call was about this on line site....I gave him information on what I am learning...(course this isn't his first time in prison so he knows most things first hand) these are not something we discuss because i think he doesn't want to worry me more than he already does....he's out of suicide watch/isolation...he finally got to talk to his lawyer and is getting a pyshc evaluation....i will pay for the drugs if necessary and this time Chris wants to take them....he says that he wants no more trouble........he will get court on sept 30 but says his sentencing could take up to 8 weeks ....then he will probably be extridited to NC....he hopes he doesn't go back to federal in atlanta and would like to stay in NC...depends on if they get just bank robbery charges or armed robbery.....Kansas says the gun thing is important....which he didn't have one....if they can bargain with the SA then he won't have to go to trial....I read someones post back from May and who ever it was said as long as my child is alive there is hope.....My mother in law has always said that to me when I've been down....you see, she lost a child about 30 years ago to leukemia....my son's girl friend is pregnant and in the same jail being charged with the same thing (armed robbery) supposedly she drove the get away car....Chris says she knew nothing of the robberies but I find that hard to believe....he says he's going to plead guilty to anything if the drop the charges against her.....he says the court is trying to make them "sell out" each other....but he doesn't want his child born in prison....I hope not either....now I'm sad again....hopefully this child will be okay....but she's not much of a mother in my opinion when she left the 3 she had to go off with Chris' joy ride.....oh well...that too time will tell.....she's lost them...now another to come into the world.....sad....sad....born of love says Chris...I wish i had a big house and lots of money and no husband or other kids living at home....then i would take in all the babies like this and hire lots of help cause I don't want no more babies!!!!lol that's why I would need lots of money...

Ok everyone may think there is a kook in their midst but really I'm okay....my thoughts just get jumbled and It is nice to have some where to put them that I'll hopefully get a response to my meanderings.....

[Barbara]

Welcome to PTO I know you will find lots of love and support here with us. Stay strong for you and you son. Love Barbara

[JDay]

I don't think your thoughts are any more jumbled than mine..although that's probably not saying much! I'm glad you had such a good conversation with Chris. Try to just tune back into that and not dwell too much on the baby/mother issue. (Nothing you can do about that one anyway, right?) It is wonderful that he's willing to take his meds - sounds like a pretty grown up decision! So just hang in there...keep encouraging him to behave responsibly...and keep reminding yourself what a fine woman you are for hanging in there!!
- Jane

[Northwest Mom]

Sounds like you are doing all you can and I am so pleased that your conversation went so well. Take care and stay stong and know that we are here. Keep us posted!