What do you miss about your child?

[Derek's Mom]

I miss him. the whole him. the good and the bad. i can't wait to be approved for visits.

[briansma]

When I went to visit him last Saturday, for the first time in years, I looked in his eyes and FOUND the boy I have been missing for so long. He is trying, really trying. He has come home to us in his heart, and although we miss his physical presence in our lives everyday, he is with us once again!

[Believing]

Praise the Lord, briansma! It's kind of sad but true. Everytime Kevin has been locked up, he seems to thrive physically. The "real" person comes back. It's such a good feeling to see them themselves again; they look so good!

[Texasfem]

I miss my son more after a wonderful visit when I leave a part of me feels like it has stayed behind. I know how hard it is for him when we leave him behind. I miss everything about him. his funny little laugh when I make a stupid joke. I so look forward to the day he comes home.

[mcardiel]

I miss his hugs
I miss how he would come home and check on me when his dad worked nights and he was out cruising with his friends.
I miss his joy for Christmas, not just the presents and decoration but the real reason for the season which was his and his sister's favorite saying.
I miss the way he would defend me when his dad would be picking on me about something even in jest.
I miss how he respected older people and how he loved his grandparents.
I miss how he never disrespected or talked back to his aunts and uncles even when he thought they were wrong about something. Total respect.

But most of all I miss knowing that he was home and safe.

[Cheryl Bielak]

You Moms are so great at telling what you miss about your sons and I agree with you all in so many ways. I miss his smile and his laugh the things we shared that was just between us. I miss having to take a xanax just to drive across town with him because his driving always scared the hell out of me. Or when I would be in his car and he would have some crazy music on and he would stop at store and leave me in the car with the wild music and the car shacking all over the place, and the people giving me strange looks because I'm to old to like that kind of music. My son always did that to see if I would change the music. Way to many knobs on the raido. I miss being with him and the holidays are not the same without him. I live to far away to visit him and that breaks my heart.How can one person mean so much to one persons heart and soul. I can't wait till the day comes when he can walk out of those walls that hold him.

[chickpea]

His ready smile and laughter when we remember something funny from the past; his strange sense of humour -- always told that boy he could be a comedian; his big bear hugs, completely engulfing me; his gulping down big heapings of red beans and rice I made only because of him; his love of his family; and the gleam in his eye when we played a prank on his Stepdad. I miss his sense of reverence for his history; his courage when he saved two children and their father from a burning car; his fear and vulnerability when he realized what could have happened had he not. I miss his bravery at not telling me what really goes on behind the prison bars to protect me, and his courage for telling me what he did to get there.

I miss his tender heart -- he cried like a baby when he found out his favorite pet of 10 years had to be put to sleep. I miss his love for art; his love for music.

I miss everything.

I don't miss the uncertainty of knowing whether he will be alive the next day.

Chickpea

[jackie57]

I miss my son's brown, puppy dog eyes. He is a sensitive man and will help anyone who is in trouble. I miss his hugs and his smile. I miss the fact that he loves my cooking, even though I don't think I"m a very good cook. I miss his support, while we are going through hard times with his Dad's illness. He too is very strong, he never lets on if there are problems in the prison. He always says its not that bad, but I know better. I like the fact that he takes ownership of his mistakes and accountability. I miss him so much and I look forward to the day we can all be together. He realizes how important his family is, for the first time in years. That's encouraging.

[Chloebug]

I miss Stephen's hugs the most. I also miss hanging out and talking to him, listening to music, or just goofing off. I miss him cooking a special meal just because and I miss cooking for him. Most of all I just miss him more than anything else in the world.

[hoolio's mom]

i miss my son's smile
i miss his hugs& cheeks kisses
i miss his appetite, he has a big one& i love cooking for him& watching him enjoy my cooking
i miss our family times together
i miss his freestyling, the words are about his life, bring you to tears
and i believe GOD will let my son out soon.i have that faith, i just feel it
thank you GOD for giving me my son.
thank you jose for being a good son, no matter what you've done
GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME& ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD. AMEN!!!!!

[cubbies_mom]

i miss everything about my son...his big heart.....laughter.....jokes...endless chatter..more...no doubt he was a bright light in this home....i remember the day he walked downstairs after giving himself a haircut and saying the cutter died.....and his head was all checkered....the pride in his face as he landscaped my yard expertly.......i used to call him tigger as he would bounce around with so much energy.....the fishing trips.....he cooked better than me.When he was little he was always the kid that would bring mom home the flowers and strawberries..yep...fresh picked..roots and all.So with aging what ever he did or gave he gave it all..the loving uncle,brother,and son he is.....the list of missing him and memories goes on and on.......
......now theres no dirty laundry hanging around...the potty seat is cleaner...less dishes...no hair shaving in the bathroom.....i miss the smell of him in his empty room...and yes the messes that let me know he was around.....
......today i cleaned out his car.......getting ready to sell it.......oh i miss him so much......it seems like every step i take brings him farther away from me...its been only 3 months...but the hardest three months of my life i can't imagine the years.....
......it took my at least 10 tries to start the mower...and i got stung by a bee.
......he is almost 3 months drug free....the gray cloud he carried around is gone...he's 185 pounds vs.150....his face filled out....his muscles huge....he's sporting a "buddha belly"....he's safe....and alive........but i miss him!!!!!

[cyndian865]

I miss being able to hug my daughter. Her name is Dana. I miss looking at her beautiful face. I miss watching her kids her hurry across the visiting room to hug and kiss her. I miss that first big smile , full of love, when we able to visit and she got her first glimpse of us in the visiting room.

[Texasfem]

I Miss Everything There Is To Miss About My Son. I Wish All This Was Behind Us.

[blessing_six]

I miss be able to look at him his smileing face his big brown eyes , his voice and being able to just hold him.

[Tricksie2645]

I miss being able to call him and tell him to go look at the sunset, or the rainbow. We always shared those things. I miss not walking with him on the beach..his big beautiful blue eyes...his curly blond hair...his smile can light up my heart...I miss hearing his voice...I just miss him.

[MAMALOVE]

I miss him...
because he named me "mamalove"
I miss his love for his brothers;
I miss his caring nurturing ways with his doggies;
I miss him fixing things around the house and beaming with pride (even if they were a bit crooked)
I miss his fingers in my Sunday Sauce
I miss him lying about who made the mess
I miss him stealing my face cleaner
I miss all the holidays because he made them happen with joy
I miss him always tripping
I miss washing his very white tshirts
I miss finding my car in a different parking spot in the morning, when I would leave for work.
I miss his excuses like maybe Sammy (the dog) went for a ride
I miss burying my head in his chest
I miss him hugging his old pooh bear; pretending he still needed it to make me smile
I miss when he would go on a major shopping spree; telling me he needs to buy his own cloths and then having me return them because none of them fit
I miss him giving me advise on life and then smiling as if he taught me something
I miss the way he would come to my room and check himself out in the mirror
I miss his chuckle of pride when his little brother would be a brat
And now that I think of it, I even miss staying up all watching the phone; waiting for his girlfriend to call me and tell me he was safely home and I could rest for one more day.
I miss the times- both good and bad
I would do it all again for him; hiding covering, lying- all of it, and more because he is my son and I am his Mommy

[Rain794]

Boston mama,Iso feel your pain.One day I was the teenager of a 17 year old boy.The next day he was bound over to adult court.Max in OH. 3 AND a half years, for a gun spect charge.Then there is his crime AG. Robby.Age made no differance. The teenage boy thing I was MOM GOOD LUCK ALLL rAIN794

[MommasKat]

I'm not so sure I miss the stinky socks....but, I do miss his smile, his contagious laugh!!
I miss hugs & movies (even the same ones over & over!)
I miss so many things.....
But, I am looking forward to the restoration of my son & our lives. I am looking forward to his coming home (sooner now, than yesterday & sooner than some, I am sorry...but they are coming home nontheless!) and to sharing our lives, our thoughts, our dreams & plans for the future ~ because we have a future...that is what has kept my boy going. That this is not forever. There is a tomorrow & it is up to us to make it better than the yesterdays for ourselves & for each other.
I miss so many things.

[Rain794]

Jan I know just what you mean. The tears that I have shed over my son as most of us mothers was crippling me. But I do miss him. I miss the way he got up in the night to grab a snack,and it always woke me up. I never thought I would miss that,lol. His room is still the same, but I miss him being in it blasting his music. My son was barely 17 that fateful day that ruined his life or saved it.He has been gone almost two years now. I so miss him. Good luck all Rain794

[sweet_aziza]

I miss my sun's smile
I miss him willing to help everyone around him
I miss picking up the phone just to ask how was his day or him asking how was mine.
I miss him not being here with his younger brothers.
I could go on but will stop here.

[Kebela1]

Everything!

[Texasfem]

everything!! I miss him even more the weekend I do not go to see him. It seems harder and harder when I skip a weekend with nothing else to do but think about him. I pray this year will be the end of this horriable night mare and I get good news for next year.

[NoAirMan]

" 'love you Daddie! "

[JustinsMama]

I miss everything about my son. Most of all I miss the smile, the one that everyone saw, the one that would light up the room when he walked in. And just a few weeks ago I got a letter from a friend of his at his unit. Geuss what? My sons new nickname is "Lil Smiley" so I am happy now to know that he still has the same smile.

[annaluko]

i miss her face and her voice