Omg I Am Losing It!!!!

[meg'smom]

Thank you Ovie,
However to be honest you are my inspriation,. When i start whinning about my situation I think of you and I am amazed . You have given me much hope that i can get through this simply becuase you are still here and still fighting and I am in totallly amazment of you.
HUgs

[justadeb]

all i got right now is sh**....

[sassiegrammy]

i Think You Both Are Inspiations To All Of Us!!! And You Are Both Loved And Respected More Than You Will Ever Know

[ivieelain]

I read your post, called and had your family put on our prayer chain at Church. I know he is a scared kid and this is just to tough, but God will see you through. Some time us Moms just get tired it is hard but just breath and know God is there.

[davidsmominva]

Dear Lori,
I am constantly in awe of you and your strength. We don't understand why things happen. The best we can do is try to see God in all things. You have done that. Regardless, how brokenhearted you are. Regardless, of how weary and worn out you feel. You have been given great revelations on the workings of God. For this I am absolutely amazed. You have had great strength out of the love you have for your children. My heart hurts for Dante. My heart hurts for Megan and Porsche. However, God sees things differantly than what our hearts feel.
The best any of us can do is too love our kids. You my dear love your kids. Its because of your love they will be okay.
What a priviledge it is too sit on the other side of this computer across the country and hear you allow God to work. That takes great strength and courage.
Thank you for giving this worn out and weary Mom hope.
Btw.... When its all said and done. I am moving to Sante Fe,NM. I am going to wear beautiful flowing skirts and go barefoot. You are more than welcome to join me

[sassiegrammy]

megs Her Long Flowing Skirts Are Long Flowing Turquiose Moo Moo's She Only Wears Turquiose Lol... But Shes A Sweety I'd Be Lost Without Her

[reggie42]

Originally Posted by sassiegrammy

megs Her Long Flowing Skirts Are Long Flowing Turquiose Moo Moo's She Only Wears Turquiose Lol... But Shes A Sweety I'd Be Lost Without Her

hahaha! But she's beutimas, even in her moomoos!

[sassiegrammy]

yes Her Is!!!! Don't Forget Her Hats Either!!! They Butifuul Too!! Wouldn't You Know It Turqiose Flowers And Lil Dingo Balls Too On It...i Think Shes Even Got One With A Parrot On It Wouldnt You Know It Turquiose Too!!!!

[reggie42]

Originally Posted by sassiegrammy

yes Her Is!!!! Don't Forget Her Hats Either!!! They Butifuul Too!! Wouldn't You Know It Turqiose Flowers And Lil Dingo Balls Too On It...i Think Shes Even Got One With A Parrot On It Wouldnt You Know It Turquiose Too!!!!

That parrot probably speaks multi languages, so it can curse people out on the cool...

[alwayssad]

I'm praying for you and your whole family. If he gets into the right rehab (mainly the right counselors or other addicts he can connect with) he has a good chance. However, he does need to get away from people, places, and things when he gets home or it could trigger use again. Again, my prayers to you. Alwayssad

[diane2]

My heart goes out to you, It's OK for u to lock dog in closet, and give cat coffee, we understand. As everyone says, including you, this is a wake up call for your son, catch it now,
while he,s still young. Love and Hugs Diane

[mahkenna]

Wow Lori, I am so sorry all this is happening....This is the stuff they write books on!!!! I pray your son has learned a lesson from all of this...

It's good that there is a witness that may clear him. Let's all pray that person is found!

[reggie42]

It's OK for u to lock dog in closet, and give cat coffee

awe......poor Lori....as you wake up this morning...please first check the pets. JK.........you made it to a new day! Take some extra time for YOU today...and take it slow. We're here for you, when you need an ear. Love ya!

[mlgrjs]

Lori, weekends are so frustrating 'cuz nothing can move 'til Monday at least. I hope today you locked the cat in the closet and fed the dog the coffee. That way none has advantage in life over the other.
And accept all the hugs I can send your way. You are not alone.

[cdubmom]

Oh, Lori....I am so sorry to hear about your son...You have been through enough with your girls, I can't imagine what you must be going through right now or what you must be thinking. This is not your fault. Please know that there are so many of us thinking of you and praying for you and feeling your pain. I am so, so sorry. I know you are devastated by what your girls are going through, and now this....You will make it through, I know you will. Please know I am thinking of you and praying for strength for you to get through this. Hugs and Love, Dawn

[worriedmama]

Lori I destroyed my computer,so I have been out of touch for 2 weeks.I am sorry your son and you are having a hard time. I know that you will get through this too. My prayers are with your entire family. When you move to that mountain don't forget that cat. Get plenty of rest,even if you don't get much sleep.

[justadeb]

good morning Lori...i hope you found a few moments of peace........

[sassiegrammy]

hi Megs, I Hope You Got To Rest And Relax...i Know Easier Said Than Done ..but You Really Need To Do It...if Not Foe Yourself Than Those Three Beautiful Kids You Have And The One On The Way...'
God Bless
Love Sassie

[everymom]

Been gone the last few days... WOW

Grandma always said difficult times are what build our character.... You must be SOME character Lori, lol.

I too agree this is God's work. Dante is still young enough to change his life and God willing this is the wake up call he needed. I think it's good they have him for a bit. It will give him some time to seriously rethink his life and give you time to rest up and regroup. Please take that time and take care of yourself. You know where he is, he is safe and sober.

You all remain in my prayers
Linda

I've got a couple long flowing skirts... I could share... I can see us all now,yep, yep, yep

[meg'smom]

Thank you everyone for all the words of support. Today is not a good day for me. I went to see Megan today and realized during our visit this is most lokey the last time i will see her before she is moved. I broke down crying nad have not been able to stay in control since. I have been trying and trying to find a way to get through this but honestly I am mess. I am guessing she will be moved this week and hoenstly I am terrified. She keeps telling me she will be ok but it hurts so much right now. I think ihad gotten somewhat comfortable withher here and now it feels as if my world is being turned upside down again.
Porsche is leaving tomorrow we think and Megan will follow a couple days later.
I know this was going to happen and I know things will improve for them once they are where they are going but I am truly scared right now.
I can see it in her eyes today. She is nervous and scared and doesnt quite know what to expect. I have tried to tell her everythign i know but i am sure it is quite different being on her side of this.
I have made sure she has money on her books so she will have something when she gets there until i can get to her. I am trying to get other things togetehr that she will need too.. Paper , envelopes and such.
I finally got the rest of her belongings yesterday and it has been hard going through them. Things i know she will never use again. Never wear again. I came across her graduation gown and diploma and cried and cried. I was so proud last year when she wore that and walked across that stadge. Now I am watching her go to prison.
How do i function right now? How do I stop crying right now? I know i will see her again and all that but I feel like i am going to freakin loose it right now. I can not focus on anything and I am walking around here like I am in a cloud.
I truly can not beleive this is happeing. My little girl, My porsche, What happened? How did this happen? I just hope i can get through this next couple months without being able to see her and not go insane.

[Judeca]

Here is another part of the process you have to get through. When they are still in jail it's hell, but it's a hell you kinda get used to. Then when they get moved it's like it's starting all over again. I'm so sorry, I remember the shock and pain like it was yesterday. In California you don't get a heads up on when or about when they will be moved. Here you can go on the LA County Inmate site and check their status - on the bottom there is an SP once they've been sentenced. You can visit it everyday for a month and nothing changes, you almost expect it to stay that way, and then one day it says SP4 - that means they are gone or will be in a matter of hours. And the shock and pain start all over again. I wish this could be easier for you - you've been through way too much as it is. But one thing I know you will find hard to believe, you will get through this and it will get a little easier. God Bless.

[justadeb]

aw lori i don't know.... i just dont know...

[heartbrokenmom]

Lori, As Judeca said I can remember the shock and pain of my son getting sentenced like it was yesterday also. That last time in March of 2004 when he got sentenced was the 2nd time for him going to prison. He had already spent 6 years from the time he was 18 til 24 in state prison, mainly from stealing from us to keep up his drug habit. And then for it to happen again, stealing his dad's gun and getting caught up in the federal system and getting sentenced 8 years was about a killer for me. He sat in jail from October, 2003 until March, 2004 when he was sentenced and then some before he finally got where he was going and I could finally have a contact visit. My whole life I felt was gone. My whole heart torn out. I was so happy when he got out and then stayed out for close to 2 years and then he got back on crack and it all started over again. It literally just about destroyed me and still does from day to day. I just take one day at a time. I can't imagine the pain you are in knowing your girls are leaving and my heart aches for you so bad. Just know we are all here, God is with you and pray a lot. Try to keep your strength. Try to take care of yourself so you can be there for your girls and Dante and try the best you can to go on with your life. You know, sometimes I told someone I wished they could give me some kind of shock treatment where they could erase my memory, just of certain stuff, all the painful stuff. Isn't that crazy? But it would be nice to have all the painful memories gone and your heart not ache so bad. But know we are all here for you. We all care. You still have your son, your mom and your PTO family and God is never going to leave you. You are not alone. There are people all over PTO hurting and we all have to support and help each other. God Bless You, Lori. I will be praying for you and remember you said we could lean on each other. You on me and me on you, so I need you to be here for me. The system is cruel and life can be cruel, but we have to try to find the good out there somewhere in this crazy world. I used to tell my kids if everyone in the world would just follow the ten commandments, wouldn't this be a wonderful world? And it seems so easy, the ten commandments aren't hard to follow and I wonder why people can't just follow them, but Satan is out there destroying people's lives with drugs, violence, hatred so we need to keep God's word in our heart. You will make it one day at a time. Hugs to you!

[judean07]

Lori, Loving you and keeping up the prays for you and your family. I think of you often and wonder how in the world GOD could give one person so much, you know there is a reason. I'm here if you need to talk and remember just lend on us and we will make it together. May GOD be with you and your family.

[reggie42]

I have no wise words....for this kind of hurt....only warm loving ((((hugs)))).