It's not Him - It's ME!

[thugwife]

I dont look down on anyone that ends their prison relationship. I look down on them for screwing around on their guys and not having enough balls to end the relationship first. Sorry, no honor from me.

As for the race, thank GOD I have a asthma inhaler, because this knocked the wind out of me several dozen times.

Trust me, I get tired of it all too. Sometimes the ones inside dont realize that it aint always about THEM.

I like to have a free Sat to do what I WANT to do, not spend my one day off all day in a prison....sigh....

[lovethis1212]

lol sooo true thug wife i wuld love to have a sat or sun to myself not travel an hr to see him! it wuld be nice but i do love him! n i dont think we should judge anyone that wants to end it.. thank god mine had 4 1/2 yrs because anything longer i wouldnt be here and i have told him straight up plenty of times because im sooo young i have no kids and havent had a place of my own yet im 21 and i wuld love to experience all those things! so.. judgeing someone for leaving is not fair especially if u dont know the situation!

[kattylynx]

I think we all have the thought "I don't know if I can do this anymore." The one thing I keep in mind is the Love I have in my heart that he has shared with me. I have spent all of my life not believing in Love and there is no way I am giving it up now that I have it.

[HISCURIOUSCUTEY]

i feel like that all the time. i just write him and talk to him and i always feel better or as u said get my 2 wind. i also think some women my think it is wrong 2 feel these way but i am like this we r human and get lonely 2. but i wouldnt leave my sweets high and dry. damn i him.

Originally Posted by akaptrosa

How come you rarely see that in the When the Relationship is over forum?

I have to be honest, if Boo and I were to ever break up while he's still locked up, it would most likely be because of ME! I would be the one who couldn't handle the lonely nights, the stressful visitation process, the loneliness, the financial burdens and the list goes on....

Trust me, I've thought about ending our relationship more than once, because I thought I couldn't handle it! So, I know LOTS of people are ending relationships, not based on some horrible action their man did, but the fact that they can't handle the prison relationship anymore! Is it wrong to admit that? Would others look down on me for saying, "I just can't take it anymore?"

I often look at this bid like running a marathon. At the starting line, I am confident I can do it. Then around mile 5, I get a lil tired, but catch my second wind. Mile 10 comes and I don't know if I can finish the race or not. Feel me? We all start off with the best of intentions, but you sure don't feel the same way you did at the starting line, that's for sure!

Do you think if people would post, "hey, having a hard time, don't know if I can hold on" they would get some support they needed to continue on in their relationship? (Let's face it, we all need that drink of water and cheering while running this marathon.) Do people not post in fear of getting looked down upon?

Just some thoughts I had in my head. I know if my relationship ends while Boo is in prison I'm guessing it will be me who is in the "wrong" so to speak. Even if I don't finish this marathon with Boo, at least I tried!

As for today....Thanking God for my second wind.

So, I'm asking, have you ever got tired running this marathon and wondered if you would make it to the end? What gave you your second wind? Have you ever thought, "It's me, not him" and our relationship may possibly end?

Be blessed & keep on running till you can't anymore! If you make it to the finish line or not, Kudos for trying!

Grab a bottle of water on your way out!