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cjSweetwater · #1 10-16-2010, 11:47 AM

Hi Everyone....

KENDRA!!!! Glad you finally got your own place. Maybe I'll be next. Things are getting dicey here. Still sleeping on my niece's couch. She is fixin to tell her husband that it's over and that he needs to move. It's like an armed camp around here. She told me two days ago that she doesn't want me to end up being a target, becauionaatse he'll hurt me to hurt her...so she says I have to be out of here by Tuesday. I have no where to go...so I guess it's to this homeless shelter in Oklahoma City until I can either get into their transitional housing program or get a job and a place of my own. I'm trying.., but it just seems like it's all gone to crap. I can't even talk to my baby about it beccause he will just worry and he always feels so helpless. We both know that if he was home I would never be in this situation. He thinks when I talk to him about it and how I'm feeling that it's his fault and that he should some how do something to fix it...but he can't. I don't really know what to do. I'm just soooo unhappy and weary. And I haven't been writing him and that's got him worried and down too! I need my girls...help me out her will y'all. Didn't want to say anything here either but I need some support. I just feel worthless, humiliated and and like a total loser!

Deni

SexyChef1 · #2 10-18-2010, 06:59 AM

I know how u feel keep your head up and stay prayerful. I've been homeless slept in my car for 4months. I wish u lived here u can crash here (BYOB) bring your own bed. U are not worthless or a loser. U are a child of God who is being tested.

Inhishands · #3 10-18-2010, 10:08 AM

I'm so sorry you are going through all of this, I will be praying for you. Is there a possibility that your niece will let you come back after he's gone. I hate those periods of life where it seems like no matter what you do it's doomed, but eventually it will turn around Girl, it always does. I so wish I was closer and could help you. Hang in there one thing for sure, this won't last forever. ((HUGS))

ifound4ever · #4 10-18-2010, 10:17 AM

you are in my prayers!!!

Doll Eyes · #5 10-18-2010, 10:24 AM

I hope things get a better for you.....I am so sorry all this is happening, very worrysome and stressful.

Lifer always tells me "It can't rain forever".

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

kendra425 · #6 10-18-2010, 08:10 PM

I know how it feels!! It SUCKS! But I have been in homeless shelters before and I did survive. I still recall the time that we were at the shelter but my little girl and I locked arm in arm and skipped down the hallway of the shelter singing "follow the yellow brick road." We believed that things would get better then, and they did. Now my "little girl" is a college student. I felt like such a failure back then because I had to take my daughter to a shelter, but it didn't end up being the end of the world. Again, just this month I got my lil apt, and all of the stress of those days when I almost went to a shelter are past again, I made it. My daughter just came to visit me at my new place for the first time this last week end. She declared she is going to major in Pre-med. So when things look dark and SO depressing, just remember some day you will look back at these times and smile. You can do this. I KNOW it's hard because I've been where you are at MANY times. When I was in it, it seemed like the end of the world, but in the big picture, it was just a bump in the road.

mzrios13 · #7 10-19-2010, 05:19 AM

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Originally Posted by cjSweetwater

Hi Everyone....

KENDRA!!!! Glad you finally got your own place. Maybe I'll be next. Things are getting dicey here. Still sleeping on my niece's couch. She is fixin to tell her husband that it's over and that he needs to move. It's like an armed camp around here. She told me two days ago that she doesn't want me to end up being a target, becauionaatse he'll hurt me to hurt her...so she says I have to be out of here by Tuesday. I have no where to go...so I guess it's to this homeless shelter in Oklahoma City until I can either get into their transitional housing program or get a job and a place of my own. I'm trying.., but it just seems like it's all gone to crap. I can't even talk to my baby about it beccause he will just worry and he always feels so helpless. We both know that if he was home I would never be in this situation. He thinks when I talk to him about it and how I'm feeling that it's his fault and that he should some how do something to fix it...but he can't. I don't really know what to do. I'm just soooo unhappy and weary. And I haven't been writing him and that's got him worried and down too! I need my girls...help me out her will y'all. Didn't want to say anything here either but I need some support. I just feel worthless, humiliated and and like a total loser!

Deni

You are in my prayers!!!!

Peach&Cream · #8 10-19-2010, 11:27 AM

this shall pass ~ do what you have to do even if it means working at a coffee shop, washing dishes, cleaning houses.... right now your "time" is everything so dont wasit it ~ get out there and do what you have to do, your man will understand once this storm settles and your able to explain it all to him. Hang in there and God be with you.

cjSweetwater · #9 10-20-2010, 11:56 PM

Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I have found a small motel where I can keep my pets, stay online, swim a little to relieve stress, and get a good night's sleep in an actual bed! (Haven't slept in a bed for 2 months! I'm doing a bit better and with luck I can find myself a little place next month! I'm going to see my Baby this weekend and he always makes me feel better!

Hugs
Deni

Quote:

Originally Posted by cjSweetwater

Hi Everyone....

KENDRA!!!! Glad you finally got your own place. Maybe I'll be next. Things are getting dicey here. Still sleeping on my niece's couch. She is fixin to tell her husband that it's over and that he needs to move. It's like an armed camp around here. She told me two days ago that she doesn't want me to end up being a target, becauionaatse he'll hurt me to hurt her...so she says I have to be out of here by Tuesday. I have no where to go...so I guess it's to this homeless shelter in Oklahoma City until I can either get into their transitional housing program or get a job and a place of my own. I'm trying.., but it just seems like it's all gone to crap. I can't even talk to my baby about it beccause he will just worry and he always feels so helpless. We both know that if he was home I would never be in this situation. He thinks when I talk to him about it and how I'm feeling that it's his fault and that he should some how do something to fix it...but he can't. I don't really know what to do. I'm just soooo unhappy and weary. And I haven't been writing him and that's got him worried and down too! I need my girls...help me out her will y'all. Didn't want to say anything here either but I need some support. I just feel worthless, humiliated and and like a total loser!

Deni

stormydaze · #10 10-21-2010, 01:39 AM

Sweetwater~
I just came across this post for the first time. Thank God you and your pets are going to be ok! I wish you the very, very best!
~Stormy

irishcanuk · #11 10-21-2010, 04:32 AM

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Originally Posted by cjSweetwater

Thank you all for your kind words and encouragement. I have found a small motel where I can keep my pets, stay online, swim a little to relieve stress, and get a good night's sleep in an actual bed! (Haven't slept in a bed for 2 months! I'm doing a bit better and with luck I can find myself a little place next month! I'm going to see my Baby this weekend and he always makes me feel better!

Hugs
Deni

Ah well done, that is good news. It sounds like things have turned a corner for you now....every good wish for your future

Inhishands · #12 10-21-2010, 09:59 AM

Glad to hear things are looking up for you. Enjoy your visit

Peach&Cream · #13 10-21-2010, 02:42 PM

good to hear you'll be in a safe place and with your lil ones

((cheers to better days))

kendra425 · #14 10-23-2010, 09:49 AM

Hope things work out and enjoy that visit!

Doll Eyes · #15 10-27-2010, 02:11 PM

How are things, going cjSweetwater?

cjSweetwater · #16 11-01-2010, 03:24 PM

Thank you all for your kind words and support! Things are slowly coming together. I rented a small 1 bedroom house yesterday and am moving in tomorrow night. Still don't know how I'm going to pay the utility deposits, but one step at a time. Baby steps Bob! Baby Steps! I love you all!

Hugs

Deni

MLJ&JLJ · #17 11-01-2010, 04:15 PM

I just sent you a PM....I am also in OKC...so read my PM and message me if you need anything.